Sunday, August 13, 2017

[13/8/17 Service] : God looks at the heart!!

August 13, 2017 0 Comments
Today's blog post will be about service in church!

Pastor started by saying that God does not look at your outer achievements/appearance/IQ/wealth/etc - but He is looking at your heart.

This jotted one of the memories I had deep inside, when I was a young Joy. (My name btw!) Like I mentioned in my previous posts, I grew up with some of the smartest, talented, kindest yet sociable siblings. I used to often try to see what I am better at, and I thought being sociable was my strength!

But, when my two brothers got into student council, officer, dance captain etc, It proved my naïve mentality that "oh well, some people are good at IQ but I am abit better at EQ" theory wrong, sobs*, and, my world crashed. Teehee nope it did not but you get the point*


To cover up the weakness at being not exactly good at anything outwardly, I decided that I shall be nice and funny, and try to improve whenever people gives me constructive comments. I mean - you don't really have to have any gifts to be nice right? That's my secret path out.

So I just clown around and lalala~ for most of my teenage years, making people laugh, saying some of the silliest and lamest thing ever, and I think it worked! This was also a period where I named my blog, LAMEBOWL (suggested by my best friend S). Because I am truly lame and like rainbow~ :)



I remember clearly once, when i was scolded by a teacher, because of my not serious outlook in life. (It is only outlook ok, I am quite mature, just that it is boring to be serious all the time!)

So I was the flag bearer representing girl guides that year. During practice, I kept smiling when the teacher ask me to be serious. What I was thinking is that this is only practice, I WILL be serious on actual day. (which I did!) But yea, he told me "MF, if you are going to be so not serious, you will get into trouble one day." Which I also did eventually. So yes, 听你的老师的話.......

Back to serious topic, so at that time, I wasn't a believer yet. I will often ask the heavens, at my balcony area, and wondered if anyone can see the heart inside instead of the outward achievements..

I know I have a good heart (though not sure anymore because recently I ate too much fried chicken).. But no one seems to be able to see that. Maybe then, God was already watching over me..because I find myself feeling very much consoled after.

Things has since change tremendously after I know Him personally. Life is still not a bed of roses, but I feel much more secured in His love, I no longer need to compare with others what I don't have, but instead focus on what I have!
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The closer we get to God, a greater degree of holiness is required. So if you are going through some tribulations right now, it's alright! You are being tested to become purer like gold! Let's Jiayou together everyone in this race, with Grace!!




Pastor then went on to James 3:8-10, and he caution us to be careful with what we say. Don't speak ill of people!!!

James 3:8-10New International Version (NIV)
but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.
With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse human beings, who have been made in God’s likeness. 10 Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be.

OK so this is like the hardest thing ever right. Haha because it is so easy to just blahh blahh out especially when you are upset with someone, even though I try to be an angel most of the time. =) Something to take note of to improve, I shall give myself one year to practice this - shall catch myself if I do that next time!! :)

 

There is this video that is quite cool by Xandria Ooi, on a similar topic. CLICK HERE to watch, you won't regret it!

He then went on to share on John 8-10.

John 8-10New International Version (NIV)
The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?” They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him.
But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.
At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. 10 Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”
11 “No one, sir,” she said.
“Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.”

In summary, when people ask Jesus what should they do to the lady who has did something so wrong, He (the most Holy high One did not condemn her, but forgive her, and asked her to go and sin no more. (Because He loved her, but at the same time, He still has his high standards and do not want her to sin anymore).

*deep in thought* Who on this Earth is blameless and without sin? Definitely not me. Hmmm~

Anyway, have a good week ahead everyone!! Thanks for reading my humble blog! :)













Saturday, August 12, 2017

4+years of working life...

August 12, 2017 0 Comments
OK so recently I just have loads of emotions, maybe because this is one eventful year of ups and downs! Still thankful though, for the good things that happened and for the lessons learnt from the bad~

There are some things which I would want to work on more, in order to meet my goals from the start of the year. Let's see whether I have the time to do so..

1) Swimming
2) Use $500 SkillFutures (for Singaporeans aged 25 years old and above) and take up counselling certificate. Found one really cool one below, but it is on weekdays so will be finding out more when I have the time.
3) Toastmaster (need to learn presenting because I am really shy although I LOVEEEEE to talk and can do so for 5 hours non stop, haha. Hope to one day be able to present my thoughts in front of public with perfect ease! :))


Work has been busy, and i misssss my colleague at work!! (Are you reading my blog? I think so cos i forced some friends to subscribe, kidding lol )..Pray that you will get well and i can see you soon! It's been really boring without you to share my grandmother stories with, and i am lonelyyy sitting beside an empty chair. o.O

Thank God for the grace though, that the stress is not getting into me! Has been asking Dan to pray for me nightly to have wisdom and strength~ Just need to sleep more and i will be a happy girl!

OOO I am not sure why but the past few days i have been really hungry, i just keep eating and eating, and keep getting hunger pangs after i eat a full meal. LOL i need to stop eating sweet and oily stuffs!!!


The above picture is how i feel outside*


The above picture is how i feel inside* told Dan i feel like i can eat a COW. ~


Anyway! I have borderline cholesterol and my sugar level is like max of normal. =X Can't believe right?? But it's true! *sighs like a grandmother for my ill discipline in food* Will go to do another blood test in October/November 17, Let's hope it goes down! 

Time to really get down to swimming and exercising instead of talking and dreaming about it. haha!

Anyone want to join me in my journey to better physical health? Feel free to leave a comment or sms me~

Have a good weekend everyone!! :)

P.S: I am SOOOO looking forward to a holiday to Penang!!!! =D

P.SS: Not sure what's the link between the blog content and the blog title, but..meh~

Sunday, August 06, 2017

[6/8/17 Service]: The importance of lessons learnt from crisis~

August 06, 2017 0 Comments
Went to church today after a few weeks of MIA due to sick/accompanying dad at home/tiredness, and woah, what an awesome service it was! Feeling so much more refreshed than before, and I have decided, I MUST go to church weekly~ Time to set my priorities right, and put God first!~



Watching service at home and live! is a different story totally - the presence in church was so tangible, and I really enjoyed it!

It started with Matthew 16:26, the parable of the rich young man, where he came to Jesus and asked where else was he lacking, because he obeyed the commandments. He, for all credit was a sensible young man. However, when asked to sell his worldly possessions, he was not able to do so, as he loved the world, and he walked away 'sorrowful'.

This strike a huge chord with me. Nope, it doesn't mean i am going to sell away all my possessions, don't worry. lol, but WOWW.

Ok so here it goes - as per my previous post, I am usually a thrifty person. Thrifty not stingy on others ok, because I do believe being able to give is a huge blessing itself! :)

Due to going through and watching how tough it was for our parents to bring up the four of us when we grew up, we are able to grow up in harsh conditions. This is something I take pride in, that I am able to eat plain porridge and cai xin/canned tuna/pork floss for a meal. So yepps, I won't starve as long as I got my papa fav home-cooked porridge and some sides!

For the longest time, I feel that I am easy to "yang". And I have this happy sweet thought that I am quite special, because I do not have a love for money and worldly possessions.



In this recent year, I had the wonderful chance to really save up a lot of liquid cash, not those stuck in some investment kind. (To clarify, I am someone who usually feel very rich, even when my bank has $300 cash. so my definition of 'a lot' may not really be a lot to some la)

Maybe because all the debts are cleared, the mortgage loans of the family car and then remaining house loans are fully paid. For once, the discipline of saving up really shows in my cute bank account. :)

However, when the savings were threatened, I realised how much struggle it was for me to give it up, temporarily or not. I was not the nicest person I thought I was. It was really by ALOT of grace and love from God that things managed to go on well as per normal. Thank God for intervening to help me love and forgive, I can never be able to do it so quickly by my own strength!

OK, so what the point of my grandmother story? The point is, the realisation of my fallen nature, that I too, will cringe at the thought of losing my money, just like the rich man in the bible. I too, cares about money. *sobs at the realisation that I am not that special afterall* =(

Haha! But yes, through this experience, I learnt that I have to trust God more, not selectively, but yes in ALL areas. Self reminder! :)



Pastor then went on to preach and showed us examples in the bible, on how pain prepares us for our purpose, and how important it is that we LEARN from bad experiences. Not just share testimonials and forget the lesson learnt from the miracle we received, but to REMEMBER the lessons, and use it to apply for our next crisis.

Good management of bad experiences leads to great growth, bad management of good experiences leads to crisis and decline!

So, I went home and thought of the miracles in my life, and lessons learnt, and I shall state here for my own information, please act interested - thanks. =)

Like he say, an experience does not teach you anything, only an evaluated experience will teach you the lessons and wisdom for the next crisis you WILL face!

So what are my 5+1 hard lessons learnt in life so far?

1. Don't ever write bad things on social media. Especially when things can easily go out of control nowadays
2. Humility, everything is from God, not from my own credit or intelligence. (This is the toughest lesson which took me 6 years to finally learn - too long to elaborate here, I hope I have learnt it, because if not something will happen that makes me learn, which I never want again OMG)
3. Don't be so attached to your worldly possessions. Didn't I believe that God is the provider - where is the faith of a mustard seed?? (Work in progress)
4. If God can perform the miracle once, He can do it again. Believe and trust!
5. Love Daniel much much (Haha! He typed in this one for me in my phone) =P
6. Share your feelings with others, do not pent it up inside - if not, it may burst one day!



OK that's all! What are your list of miracles and lessons learnt, a list that you do not want to forget the next time you meet a challenge?

Have a good week and a happy national day holiday next week! :)