The JoyFoo Life!~

God is good is good is good!:)

Sigh.. I m experiencing the 'can't concentrate properly cos thinking of bf' syndrome again..this happened before when I was in jc and I was quite affected by it,in fact very ..and couldn't set my heart down fully to study. It was tt kind of feeling like you are studying but your mind is not focus so though u sit there for many hrs, most of the time ur mind is wandering somewhere else .. :( hmm wondered before ..y does it always have to happen in the last year/ the most impt period?maybe this is a test for me..to see whether I can overcome this weakness of mine, and not be affected once again by a guy. But...ahhhh it is so difficult..*cries*..not to get affected by my silly emotions. Really wish tt I can do well..but with all the emo-ness and distracting thoughts...it's so tough:(...sigh sometimes i just wish all this will be over soon. June will faster come, and I will see John again and don need to feel sad and still have to force myself to study..dear God..pls help me go through this difficult period..and help me to concentrate in my studies...strengthen my faith God.. to know You are always watching over me..and things will be fine with your grace..I pray all this in Jesus name..Amen. ='()

sometimes when i am in church..and look at those who made THE decision and went forward..i can't help thinking..how 'blessed' i was..that i did tat 4 yrs ago too. i wonder if i didn't, how different everything may just turn out. i remember them saying then,when i went forward,to let God come into your life...and everything will be changed when u trust and depend on Him..lol at that moment,i was wondering how it is possible, and wishing with all my heart that that will happen.(since i am such a worrysome person and i din't like it!~)

although there has been many really down times(and i wonder why such things have to happen to me) and also up times so far..it has always been an assurance to me now, whenever i am worried, scared, have doubts about myself, about future, about anything, that God will be there for me..and He will make sure everything is fine at the end...Hee so it's with this faith that, i can face life challenges more bravely!..

haha and glad to say..so far..God has never failed me at the end, when i put my trust in Him!!...=)..

hehh pray that God will soak me with more faith in Him!!..cos that will make me a more peaceful and less stressed/worry person!=)

but at this moment when i am typing! i am really feeling the stress man! everything is going so fast pace, and i am lagging behind so much! >< sighh! but yepps trust trust!! everything is going to be fine!!...

Proverbs 16:3
Commit your actions to the Lord,
and your plans will succeed.

MORE FAITH MIFUNG!!!!!!!

Omy..today is a day of surprise..actually suppose to study..after audit class..since it is already the fourth day I didn study..but ahh my singtel bill came n indicated that my two year plan is up! In the end decided to go renew contract and waa mummy decided to get an I phone four...actually was thinking of iPhone three gs is already vvv good le!! Cos zero dollar ..but mummy is so on!!..just decide to get..cos three gs no stocks..ahh actually still in shock now..Ono.. I really need to be focus..but for the moment feeling xintong but thankful at the same time...mummy daddy is so nice to me...ahhhh I must jiAyou le..dun disappoint them..and myself..
God please help me be focus in this last year...:')!

hahah and sooo it all started a few weeks ago, when the subject was brought up about running a 10km race..

feeling bored cos no john around and abit 想不开, i decided to do something challenging that can bring some spice into my currently boring life..

sooo yepps!decided to be onz about it although i hardly exercise much(Except the two three weeks i ran abt 2.4km in stadium)...HAHA was thinking about it some nights wondering if i am alright..(am i?) cos i am really not an athletic kind of person..=P..soo yupps paid up and okii..too late to regret anymore..

and so the run was at ecp..and it starts off at 7.45am...so eaRLY on a sunday!!><..thought the first bus to bedok starts at 5.40am..sooo woke up at 5am...but realised actually the first bus was 6.07am!=X stoned at the busstop until finally the bus came..i think this is the first time in my life since dunno when i woke up so early on a sunday..heee so proud of myself since i am such a pig..=p..

lol yupps,reached there...ran with rina..okii fine la! i mean run AND walk..(don't laugh okii!)..waa dunno how those ppl run ALL THE WAY for 10km....hahaha i think i won't be blogging tonight alr if i tried doing that..maybe in the hospial or something...

HAHA anyway the best part of this race, is the finishing point!! where we take photos of our successful completion. SOOO HAPPY!!! :)..

high**

okieee hope tmr won't have cramps...ahhh actually i am already feeling abit feverish now, but shld be fine la after drinking water hmm!..

pics!:)





wheee! i should go do more of such MUST DO things in life like blood donation, and all these challenging stuffs.then can look back next time when old..

=)!

ahhhhh okay i am finally awake already from my happyland..!!..lets pray that it's not too late..

heee..

jiayoujiayoujiayou!!!

haha soo i went to halloweeen party that day...with louis jiali mp jialin and roy. it was fun!! :) though the ghost kept walking around us and trying to stare at us with a scary look..haHA i think it is not a good idea to transmit fear through your eyes when they stare cos they will keep sticking around u and won't leave u!><...

after screaming alot for the whole night,we went back home in roy's car and reached home at 1.20am!><...went to sch the next day, then church, and then to friend's auntie wake + friend's grandfather's wake... (take care friendSS!!!!><)..reached home at close to 1am once again =X!! and sunday was spent happily in school with james..

ahhhhhh..MA is so discouraging!!><..i can't seem to understand leh..lead me back to wonder if i was MA-challenged, just like i was in economics(yr 1). >
sigh!!

我真的不想读书了!!!

something great happened yest, some money came in from work(which i din't thought will come)..so my bank acct increased!..

but seeing $3k plus drop to near nil again cos of sch fees..><..

the feeling sux..

God, please watch over your child here..=(

hmmm..another week ahead..oki something i must keep on remembering...trials and difficulties exsits because:

1.God knows what's the best way (to cook and barbecue) us to grow, and He allowed it. He knows what He is doing!!
2.It is a preparation for us, not the final hit-rock-bottom destination.

oki!! so i must have more trust in God..haha sometimes it's really easy to go pessimistic and forgot the good things He has done for us.. when difficulties come along the way..but i pray with all my heart God will bring me through this!and i know He will..cos He has never failed me..=')..

*Dear God, please guide me through this year..though i may not understand many things, and it hurts badly at times.. i know it is all for my own good at the end of the day..pray that you will be with me, everyday of my life, and pick me up whenever i fall..Amen.*

how...

I got my study guides today!!!:)

oki have been quite a guai girl and doing work and exercising..and trying my best not to think of john..>< still waiting for my study guides to arrive..i think i am so pathetic..i am actually looking forward to study guides to come!!so that i have more things to do and fill up my time.

HAHA.haisss..omyyy.someone just kill me.

as the title indicates, i used to be a happy-go-lucky girl, who goes through life without a thought about her own future, and love to go to school and tell her friends how much i haven't been studying, and feeling that it was super cool being sooo relax and not working hard. lol. the best thing i like to do is to totally not be reading notes before an exam. (and stand around looking at nice scenery and trees).. i really din't know what is so cool about not studying, but it just feels cool to me that i was having alot fun and life, and slacking around...

sounds familiar?

HAHA maybe this sounds like YOU!

all the way from pri 3 onwards(where my group of friends and i started copying science homework, each of us doing one page of MCQs and exchanging answers), there was no sign of direction in my life..i was a "last minute" kind of person, chionging through major exams only at the last few months when the whole world seems to crash. i mean, O levels mid yr-33pts, A levels prelims 20ranks points/90pts..WTH?!! it was soo bad, that my older brother told me firmly one day,that with my all-day-like-fun attitude, i am going to get third class honours in uni, and then psycho myself that it is fine, at the end of the day. LOL.

hahaha if you are the same kind of person as me, WAKE UPP!!!after getting numerous rejections from local unis/financial institutions, and realising that i have been playing for 9yrs of my life away..and having lots of fun..but without much permanant achievements, it's time to move on to another level..the even cooler place..THE MUGGER SOCIETY. that's life right? we shld try out different things in our life!:)so when we look back in our old age, we can say we have tasted both fun and drilling hard work.

for those who have yet to wake up, maybe it's time to?..actually everyone knows the advantages of getting good results,but how many is willing to put in the hardwork for it?

1.parents happy.
2.good job in future.(not definite but at least better chances?)
3.good end to your uni life. (can throw your graduation hat happier)
4.HAPPINESS and HIGH-ness.

the question now is..why haven't you wake up? this might be the last chance you have, to put in your very very best to show all the people around you, that you are more than a "private school student"..but someone who can do it well, like you say you could..instead of somebody who always say "actually if put in the effort i also can do it"...while never actually been able to test/prove just how much you can do it when you put in your very, very best... why not NOW?

lastly, the cert. the cert is a very scary tool, not only it tells future employers what kind of person you are at first look, (unless well, u are chairman of a club and had many good cca records or valid reasons la).. it also allows you to describe personality traits of yourself without opposition!..example,"i am a person who is responsible/ always put in my best in everything i do/ hardworking/ dillgent worker, etc..." all this can't be said cos there is no evidence to support from looking at the cert. HOW CAN THEY SEE WHEN ALL YOU GET ARE LESS THAN AVERAGE GRADES AND SCHOOL IS SUPPOSE TO BE A STUDENT's RESPONSIBILITY?

like many people i know, we are in the last lap of the race..some of us have 4 subjects..some have 5..some have 6..but all of us have the same goal. which is to do well in school! and know that all things are possible when we believe. (in Him) and how do you get the lazy bones off?

for me this is what i do!

1.PRAY for strength(to not fall asleep so easily and have more determination) and have faith!(don be scared of studying too much and not getting the results you want. know that if you don't study, u have even lesser chance to achieve desired results.)TRUST AND DEPEND ON GOD FOR ALL THINGS~! (He always never fails.:)

2.GET ALL the distractions away. if it is the comp, the bed, or the tv...get as far away from them as possible, unless you have self discipline. (i know you don't have. =P..haha!!okay cos i don't too when i am near them..lol)..

3.Be consistent in schoolwork!at least self study 6h/subject/lecture:)

4.Know that you won't regret.. studying too much.

HHEHEE. ok i shall also go into the mountain to study from next monday.should be blogging much lesser than now..crossing fingers to be able to achieve that.hahha.

byebyeee lazy bonesS!!and jiayou everyone!!PRIORITIZE.:)....

p.s: i am still happy-go-lucky and nice don't worry!=o)

hehe oki i am inspired to write this entry when i was in lecture and talking about my exercising plan...

hmmm after many meals of fast food weekly, plus an unhealthy habit of not drinking water daily, plus not liking to move any muscle (e.g maybe do sit ups..or climb up stairs like my sis does)..i am finally enlightened by the importance of health.

heh only when i was in jc..that i have had constant exercise..(although not v constant cos sometimes i skipped a few rounds of running when the teacher is not looking =P)...and that was like...2-3yrs alr!!..><..

haha..actually the main reason i was further-inspired was when i watched an interview with ou xuan(this channel 8 artiste)..she said that when she was free she will run 10rounds daily!...either that or 6 when not free..

and she is soo fit and pretty and healthy~..!ahhh... i think hehee real pretty-ness is when ur cheeks glow without any makeup..and you look fit+thin! =D..

due to maybe my mum's genes of high metabolism rate..i have managed not to grown too out of shape..and many ppl have the mistaken idea that i am thin!!..hehe there was once even asked if i was a netball player last time..

BUT.. =PPp i know tt if without the genes..it would have been disastrous!cos i eat like nobody business..><..

SO, the point is..i have decided to do one form of exercise once weekly!:)

in order not to 'NO ACTION TALK ONLY', i did my FIRST day of exercise today.

ran 5rounds around the track!!!... =DDD...

ahh .....................hmm okay la...half run half walk. ><..hee (don't laugh oki!!..i will try to do better nxt time!..and not stop..=o)~ )

heh after the 2nd round, i look so pale my sis was like staring at my lips. but after a few minutes of resting, the colour came back and i was super flushed! :))))))))

I LIKEEEEEE!!!...feel so happy though exhausted!

=D i think i will eat normally..(maybe control just aBIT)..but yes, just do exercise weekly!!

YAYY !!

wonders if i will have muscle aches tmr*><...anyway mp told me today pig= pretty intelligent girl. AHHH i want to be a h-pig!healthy pretty intellgent girl!:)HAHAHA.

okayy..after a few days of seeing my blog being overlapped by words and wondering what is wrong...feeling >< cos i can't even blog and this is a blog i had for so many years..i finally noticed why when i watched a video today.

apparently something with a limit on the post in first page, or something..but yepps i have saved it by setting a limit of post on first page~3post a page!! so that's what u will see in my blog, when u come..just 3 post instead of a whole month's...

=)happy again and back to blog..*

anyway what i have been doing so far..watching the korean dram "personal taste".. it is really a very sweet show and lee min ho is CUUTE!! >< and most importantly as a guy, in that show...was his attentiveness to the girl's feeling..on top of his awesome looks. :P.. waaaa..makes me wanna melt la..hehe!and think of john!!(AWWWW misses*)..

hehee wonders if guys will continue to be sweet even after years of being together.. :P..*hint* i mean..he was so caring!!!and...always theree for gf whenever she gets into trouble..=)))!

lol now i know why a friend ask me not to get too addicted to drams..cos..HEHE it makes u go into fantasyland..and suddenly u may start comparing and lolls. hhaaha NOT that i am la..i am definitely thinking about my studies when watching the show. RIGHT.

=P

shed so much tears for the show!!:P!!maybe it is because of pms? hahah...

esp liked a part of the show, it's about this girl who has suffered cos the mom passed away at a young age of 5..then alot of bad things happened to her!but she is an optimistic girl, who is brave..and wouldn't let negative feelings get into her for too long..it's just part of her nature to be like that.. even when her bf was taken away by her best friend of 10yrs (cos the best friend was jealous she always looking so happy), she was cheated lots of money away by another of her good friend, she failed at an interview, LOL after a while of crying, she is back on her feet again and smiling.hehe!! then when she finally met this guy..who wants to take care of her forever and love her so much..AWWWWW. =o)!!!...

hehee finds a bit of similarity in her..but not to say i silly silly one la!! =PP..hehh i want to be a brave girl too!! ...wOAAA..

heh.okieokie enough of nonsense..i will have to start my engine soon(have been talking abt tt for ages, but is the engine even there?hah..)

ehh but everytime i open my books in my house on my bed, i will fall asleep!! ZZZ. okii time to stay in library and not go home so often.

aHHH!!....oh no feel that i have been going out too much!!...so far since school started, have went to ecp..bishan lib yest..(which we dilly dally to koi and everywhere before finally settling down and study a lil)..then went to have dinner with cousin followed by watching movie at late night and reaching home close to 1am. ><..then tonight going to meet jas for dinner and tomorrow there is a friend's bbq party after class!!...not only that..i also rested and have alot of time at home online-ing and tv!!...

lol.. OMy what a great start to my year 3...awwww i think i am going to the dark side..and starting to taste abit of fun that i had missed out last time..><..it's abit new and addictive leh!oopss...

*tries crawling back*

=P..

issit because you have went away or issit because school just started, or issit all because i haven turned slacker?

hmmm okayy...hahaa shall start being good girl from next weekk!:)...

WHEEe.what a good plan.=oP

but..DEAR I MISS YOUU...=(!!....sigh!...wants to do silly things with you all around singapore again.. ><..will there be a day in future that i stop missing ya?and when that time comes, will it be a good thing? ='(

*heave a big sigh and tries to be optimistic still* =]

school have started for a week plus already...you have went off for almost a week too..

happy birthday darling..:). hope you are having lots of fun in london...!

hmmm..

have been reading up alot of fraud cases...finds it interesting how ppl always started out without much...but when they became successful, all the glamour and richness overcome everything, and it becomes so easy and vulnerable to cheat, or lie through the financial accounts...that's why they always say it's a huge challenge to be able to stay on top...cos of so many temptations available!!

hahaaa and it is so easy for an accountant to cheat!

LOL ...

ahhhh trying to study but not very successful so far..somehow the motivation seems to have decreased due to some moral hazard problems. plus a couple of reasons.

OHNOOOOOOO...i need to get back the engine soon..!!it's warming up vvv slowly now.....>

OMYYYYY i am reeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllly bored!!><...so bored that i dunno what i should do...LOL..

okii..and so the past few years i have been spending time focusing on God, studies and john...and any free time(a little left) i have will be spend slacking at home happily..

but now that he is overseas, aWWWww i feel so dateless!! LOL.. not only i have no constant sms-es from him, i also have no movies/dates/anything fun to look forward to..

=(..!!..

hmm but again, not that i want to spend alot of time playing cos studies is still very important..but ...for the fIRST WEEK OF school, at least i wanted some fun or somewhere to play! *sniffs*

hhaha so now i am at home walking around, and eating mooncakes, and walk around, touch my notes, walk around...watch tv..

OMY i am so sad. waits for more homework to come excitedly*

=PPpp AHH!!

okii i shall go watch tv now.

LOL...okiee i am supposed to be not distracted...and be a gooood girl today..

bUT.

i am now discussing plans to go out and play...and online for like ages><=PppP..

anyway...went to school today..the first feeling i felt was....OLD ...and maybe new.since i haven been to school at all for the 4 months holidays.

it just feel different now that i am in year 3..everything seemed so serious..it is the last year already.><....

haha and the subjects all feel so new..

sigh..maybe... maybe it's just because........................=(.

i guess i need to have my life back..i can't live my life being sad for the next few yrs..though it is really hard, when u are busy with yr new colourful life and i am all free..when there are so many thoughts running through my mind about the uncertainties ahead..hmm...i really need to trust God more...remember all the great stuffs He has done for me..=')..*prays*...

jiayoujiayoumyself!!! +) i can do it dE! ...

signs off*

okiee...quite a few days of being sick alr..wHY IS MY tHROAT STILL SO PAINFUL??!! =(((...

though the fever and flu is almost gone..SIGH. have been talking in a croaking voice the past few days, think all those that called me will know how bad it is. =X

it's so difficult!..not being able to talk..=(((...i feel so restricted. ><..

thanks dorcas for bringing me to see doctor on sun!X)..

hmm..just sent john off to uk just now..missy miss...><..

prays that he will be safe in uk!!..and God to protect us..*

school is starting from tuesday..another year to go..the last one!..

imustnotgetdistractedmustnotgetdistracted.

hee. X)

hmm feeling very emotional nowadays and many things happened too within a short span of time. bracing myself up for THE DAY to come..where i have to go to the airport and send john off, without making a fool out of myself and crying like i have lost my balls. not that i have any la. ha.

just read my sister blog...which i added her link at the left hand corner of my page. so lame ...she go call her blog www.raynebowl.blogspot.com, then now it seems like i copied her and she is the authentic one.. LOL. anyway ya she is called rayne soo her blogname is such.

recommended to read the post on "PARENTS" on her blog..(A MUST READ!!!!)

it's so touching i can almost cry. =(...

SIGHhh sometimes i wish i can really grow up faster so i don't have to look at my parents working so hard...and can help out abit..but i know i'll definitely miss younger times because the older you grow the more stuffs you know and sometimes, knowing too much isn't exactly too good, as you start to lose your crazy side and become a more serious person. (Am i turning more serious??nahhh i will be back to 'norm' soon i guess)...

looking at her post makes me think of the past..i love our childhood memories!..it was great!=) though we were poor, hehe..it was REALLY fun...:))))))....all of us having each other around to play with...though i am not sure if my parents found it the same way. we were apparantly a bunch of noisy kids and i think my sister and brothers have some hyperactive blood flowing in them..they likes jumping,running and can never sit still..esp my bro. i think i was a very angelic quiet and nice and guai girl compared to them la!!..until..maybe primary 6?

i dunno what happened after that.. maybe it's because of girls school..or something..HEE. 'quiet' become no longer the correct adjective to describe me. =PPppp...

anyway yeappss....work..after my parents have waited for sooo long, raising us up with everybit of energy they have, it's almost time for me and my brother to start work. one more year and we will be out there earning money~!$$$$$$$$$$$!=D

yeeppss i must ALWAYS remember, that when i become self-sufficient,(maybe no longer dependent on my parents for money anymore)...i must NOT become like those educated ppl in singapore, (who feels tt parents are useless and is a burden) and throw them somewhere to wash dishes or become cleaners...:((..instead i must keep on remembering how they have brought me up the past 22yrs of my life.

MMMM.. pray that i will never forget this!!! MUMMY DADDY WAIT FOR MEEEEEEE!!!X)...

okii goes back to emo-ing*

ahh..okie work ended on 31aug, and i have been going out EVERY SINGLE DAY since 3rd sept. and now finally..i am sick and can feel a fever coming. ><

tomorrow is finally a rest day for me. REST REST REST.

ahh HOW i MISSSS JOHN already.and i last met him like 2hours where we went to art museum!...

wonders how i am going to survive for the nxt yr..maybe i will go do some exercise(Something i have been saying for loooong time not yet achieved) when sch reopens, to busy myself and at the same time shed the increasing weight due to me not exercising for 2 years. (or issit 3? ><)

AWWWWW sick. >< and wishing school will not start so sooon!!!

I STILL WANT TO PLAY! ...=(

hehe..went out with SIM CrOOOOk clique yesterday..LOL it has been a really looooooong time since we met up..longer to me cos i tend to miss outings when school starts:P...

lol the reason why we were called crOOOk is because i said in my first year that i was suppose to be in the beauty pageant but the panal forgot to invite me in. soo louis started calling me pigeon instead and crOOKing at me during econs class and scaring+embarrasing me..haha..

that seemed so like yesterday!.. =)..went just acia@ marina square and i collected my new wallet! :)...

then took louis car and went to marina barrage..it was fun!! we reaLLY had fun laughing our heads off over some topics..(LOL i do hope those involved don't tag my blog abt THAT topic since this blog is vERY public..and as u all know, i have many fans readers)...

HAHA.BIMBOoOOOo.BHB.THICK SKIN.LIKES.

=O))..

started discussing about graduation trip~..lol how i wish money will drop from the sky and i can go overseas!! I reaally lovEEEEe going overseasssss LAAH...!..

went ichiban boshi @esplanade to have dinner today!wenfu treated me and john and jasmine...partly cos of john leaving..and also for good resultS!.. Wa..the food was...yummmmmy!!!..heee the price went up to $160+...thanks wenfu!!don't worry i won't forget u next time!heh. =)

hmm...10more days to john leaving..AWWWwWWw.. 9monthss not seeing him..prays everything goes well ba for us.. :)..faith!:)

photos from yesterday! :)





=))

hmmm..was feeling REALLY sad yesterday after work in the morning..

this must be the first time i am feeling sad over work ending..usually i will be quite tired out and totally wishing work will end..not to say this work was any less tiring..but SIGH. the malaysians there..are really so warm and friendly and fun..

not forgetting teasing us..disturbing us and taking care of us the past 2++ months..='(!..maybe it's because they are youngster too..mostly about age 20 to 28...that's why they are so...energetic and funny...

learnt also so much about the lives of them..and stories behind them..indeed..each of us have different troubles and challenges..we just have to learn to overcome them..and we are indeed super lucky, with a s'pore passport and a degree..

sigh, this chapter of my life will be remembered..and is going to close soon..as i move on in life..

hope that all of them will continue being happy in life...and God bless them..heh..byeebyeee cisco people!:)

HEHE. and so i got back my results on thurs. that's before rushing to work night shift, which was so TOTALLY anti climax and i really din't know what i was doing at work when i should be celebrating like nobody business.

:)))

HEHE. this whole year was just...greaT :))...even better than the first..

first year in school.. i worked really really very hard! as i was disappointed in going sim and not local uni..however..i depended alot on my own strength..and very soon, found myself quite stressed up..also stopped going church weekly about one two months before exams.. (which may be the reason why i was stressed)..

so when the results came out..well it was oki!not bad..60++, but by the effort i put in, it was really abit disappointing, cos i was like studying every single minute of time when not playing with john. it was then that i realise, i can't do it using my own bare strength. i need more than my own strength, maybe some divine strength from above.

and so this year, my resolution for the year, is to be more spiritual, and surrender all to God!I need Him, i know i can't do supremely well with my own strength...to do more than good or above average, i need Him! aND WOW what a difference it madE!:)...

not only i was less stressed, spent lesser time studying compared to first year(of course i still worked hard la!), rested more by watching tv and sleeping and online..went to church weekly before exams(even when time was running out already and i can't finish studying ...but i believe that by sowing time in His house, i will be blessed!:)...tWO best thing that happened in the year was,

1. i made friends with people that i dunno like everywhere i go.this is really abit freaking but ya la!! somehow they are all super nice and helpful and lent me useful notes that aid me in my exams. JUST WHEN I AM IN NEED OF THE NOTES AND HELP. one even asked if i wanted his handphone number, so when i need help i could ask him and he can help me. OOMG. another one lent me stacks of answers that was like totally rare and unavailable to ppl. some continuously sent me lecturers notes that was uploaded and disappear easily cos the lecturer take down very fast. AHHH and ppl around me was wondering why i always so lucky and meeting such helpful dudes..

2. I managed to squeeze in time to teach my friends before exams. LOL i dunno where the faith came from but i just felt that i am sure God don't wan me to just study my 3 years away a mugger without helping anyone in school..sO HEE. yea... but the point was..i actually had time to do all that!!! at the same time attending church regularly. and making time to teach like 3 ppl 2weeks before exams.

and so, when the results came..and they passed their subjects relatively well judging from amt of time left for them to study, i feLT sOO happy for them!!:)...it was a great feeling..like a sense of fuifillment..i am happy i got that FEELING from nowhere that i shld help them..and i am sure many around studying with me will agreee how come all those things i studied days before, always seem so ZHUN and come out.
:))...bLESSED.

and on top of that..TADAHH..my results.it was really beyond what i can ask for, and i am really thankful to God!!:)...this year had indeed been great, when i relied on Him..all things seemed to work well, and i managed to achieve so much within the same amount of time. :))

HEre is it!

Financial Reporting-74
Financial Management-78 (LOL...okie this is nice...)
Managerial Econs- 93 (OMGOMG WTH??!)
Sociology-63(WAAAHHH i got 30 marks for my prelims leh.. >
=)))))!!!!!THANK GOD for the results man!:)...i know i worked hard..but ...is this even human resultS? ...X)!!!

comparing to year one results..where i was studying every minute i have using my own energy..LOL..this year was GREAT. HEE for those that don't believe God exist...maybe...it's time to...??hee..

once again, Thank God for watching over me and giving me the strength and faith to go through the year. :))..Pray that i will always have Your guidance in my life..forever..all glory to you!!:)...

WHEE~!!!:)

back again!..

went to church yest after work and was not asleep for 28hours..lol ..*sees stars and react super slowly*

work is ending soon..and this time is for real.. holidays had just flew past once again..this time even faster than last year i felt..we will really miss them and i wondered if we will cry on the last day.LOL. the months spent there was eventful but enjoyable..with friendships and bonds built..it was so different from the last long job i worked..which was so..independent and alone.

heh..=')..

also, hmm the constant thought of john flying off is leaving me troubled daily, on top of leaving work..=(..i guess..i will defintitely miss him alotalot..='((..the one that i had fun and sadness with for the past 2+ years. ><..

kind of dread the day coming closer..but..i guess it's something i have to face..just pray for lots of faith and strength to bring me through...

mmm..and results coming soon too! kinda disbeliving cos i can still remember vividly the very last exam i had in expo 3 months ago ..after which i went to a hUGE buffet with john to celebrate...tEa=Pp..

AWWWWw. there it goes again.

sigh!~

going to watch step up in orchard with dorcas, marg later..maybe i will cheer up ba...

=]

ah finally i am having off from work..

oki so one fine day, i suddenly had a plan..that the last monthly paycheck in cisco..i wanted a FAT big one.

SO me and marg started our journey on chionging work for the past few weeks, staying up to help so can earn more $$$$$$$$$$$$.so for the past 10 days i have been working non-stop, only coming home to sleep and then go to work again..night shift..morning shift.. and today is finally the last of the 10th day! *PHEEWWWWWWW* after work today, went to church with john, and felt like it has been sooooo long since i went out..

and something funny happened. everywhere i look, ppl were looking like the ones i worked with in cisco la...here and there..same hairstyle..and all! i think i am going bonkers..luckily it's just for a month..so from 17th aug, i am proud to announce i shall not work extras anymore, but go home at the right time. :) for my health sake..

haha...YEAAAH I AM GOING TO BE SO HAPPY WHEN I SEE MY PAY CHECK!! :) too bad so much is going into cpf.

HEHEE. fruits of labour are always sweet. :)

PRAISE LORD FOR the strength !! =)

going out to zoo tmr..happy girl!:)

okiii short post cos i wanna go sleep!:)..

some updates..whee happy! so far have been going out (like finally since school holiday started).. first going out with work friends to orchard, followed by ndp with marg and parents (thx marg for the vip tix!)...

i dunno if it's because i am sitting in the vip seats or what,(so got shelter from the scorching sun)..i find the ndp parade especially nice! and the whole programme was just pleasing and excellent.. from the top designers goodiebags, (now without those ugly sponsors logo, instead logos are printed on a plastic card)..to the food inside..to the performace..the gifts..the fireworks..the costumes..it was all very glamorous and expensive looking..a real difference from 6yrs ago when i was involved in ndp 2004 in girl guides!:)...HAHA..time flies...

even more different from 10+ yrs ago when i went ndp in primary school..and many bags burst..due to the weight of all the food and drinks..(The quality then was.. omg><..)..

HEHE. yea! and this morning went to our church 21st anniversary(same as my age!:P) @ indoor stadium...talked about how "faith,hope and love" is very impt in our lives!..love being the most important out of all..

=)...

Loving God wholeheartedly...loving ppl fervently..heh..

I think the best decision i have made in my life so far...was 4 yrs ago when i accepted Christ in my heart. I am so thankful for how pastor kong has impacted my life over the past few years positively..and also God's works in me. I am sure many in city harvest church will agree with me..

hee..happy birthday church!:)...

(pictures on facebook!)..

K sLEEPtIME. nights!~

haha!! oki so i rested on thurs when actually i got a dinner with sec sch friends..got a splitting headache i wonder why...><..maybe is the night shifts making my immune system weaker..

anyway don't care la!!HAHA work's fun and me still love it. :)

hehe...and on friday the whole morning and afternoon was spent on settling some admin govt stuffs..zzZ!! i hate doing such things like applying visa/make ic/extend passport..cos it waste alot of my precious time..and most of the time, they require you to make several trips down..either to hand in form,collect things..or cos you forget to bring a certain thing..

sooo yea this is alr my 4th trip down ..and finally it is almost done except on 28th i have to go lavendar again to collect my new passport~!=o...

yeaa and after that the whole family+ cousin went to nanyang junior college to watch my brother's dance performance!heheh..

omy i am soooo impressed with him that i am going to faint!.lol there were many items put up that night..singing..cheerleading..band..to dance..dance was the last item..and the cheering from the crowd was deafening! Hee..when my brother's group came..mi and my sis and alot more were screaming our lungs of..we were sooo super excited for him! and the performance was reallyyy great!!!! ...

hehe currently i only have the practice session of their dance..but the real one was even better cos of the mood+better clothes+contact lenses..=d~!!!!

HAAa we were so hopelessly loud and enjoying ourselves lA! hee..

oki so here's the clip..real one on that day to be uploaded again.

enjoy at the nxt blog post~ hhehe and 'like' it on youtube to support him! :p)

okie..so when school holidays started on 25may..i wrote down 6 stuffs i wanted to do in hoidays and 3 things i want to spend on with the money i earned.

lets see how much i have fulfilled so far..

i watched drama..found a great job..did some housework though not enough yet to make the house sparkling clean.. haven exercise..have not catch up with friends yet cos timetable clashed..and HAVE NOT CARRY OUT MY BIMBO PLAN YET.

sigh:(

i want to look chio+make up+fake eyelashes and strut down orchard road in a princess like manner, maybe with a sunglasses or something..although that would defeat the purpose of wearing eyelashes..><..but anyway yea!!second desire is to strut around in my sa uniform..anywhere..

that's my secret desires although they won't be now...but SIANNN....until now haven even got time to go out and watch a movie with friends.

ZZzzz...

soon soon..haha..

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM...off days till sat..but it is filled out with events like going to settle some govt admin stuffs, going for my brother dance competition tmr..and going church..

but nvm, i am still happy cos i feel the sweet freedom of no workk..

bah.

hmmm...off day now...

work was fun the past few days...time seems to pass much faster when ppl are not taking things other than work seriously..but joking around all day long..:)

started to think about how it will be when work life starts..will things still remain so fun?..most probably not..it's going to be more serious..more competitive..more stressful..

all the fun and jokes and lame-ing around..i guess it's not going to be suitable for working life..(onoooo..i will feel so constrained then..!><..likes to talk nonsense and laugh at everything=(..)..

then went on to think about how cisco is only going to be a memory in my life when i look back nxt time..so sad!!..it's going to be my favourite job out of all..the one that gave me the best memories of working life..So, no matter what happen from now till the end of my stay there..i MUST TREASURE MY TIME THERE!..as much as possible:)..cos it is THIS MOMENT which i will be looking back with fondness in the future...

hmm anyway, why i have so much time to think is because i am a quarter sleeping, a quarter thinking..and half working everytime i am given a task..cool right! haha i learnt a new skill there. :P..sometimes when the quarter is not thinking..i would be half sleeping and working..

HAHA it happened quite a few times! ppl suddenly calling me to wake up..cos my eyes was closing..as i was counting and handling the $$$...HAHA..thank God for not making any mistake till now. hee..

also started thinking about friends..how it's sad when sometimes, friends that you have so much fun with one moment, can disappear so easily after some time of not meeting up..(not referring to those that still keep in contact)..but those along our lives, where we spent much fun together, but due to busyness..gets lost and gone totally..

will my friends at work where i am having sOO much fun with right now disappear once we stop working?..and become just part of my memory?:(..will my school friends in uni disappear once we all move on to the next phase of our life-workinG?ahh must make it a point to meet up next time when i start working..few months once will be great.heh.

LOL. emo post..but i am not emo la..just having alot of time to think about things daily..

8 more "Work cycles" to the end of work in cisco..

AHHHHH..i totally don't want to go back to studying yet LAHH..my tortoise life><...

and also..john is going off to uk to study in sept..sigh***...wonders how it's going to be for both of us..9months apart.. *prays that everything is going to be alright!:)*..HAHA maybe i should like buy him a HUGE potrait of my face to hang in his living room wall so he won't forget me. =PP..

mm about him going off..yes. for now, i am in the "leave it to God to decide" stage..cos i know i can't control what is going to happen to us both...and there is no point thinking of all the hundreds "what ifs"..hmm, maybe after 5yrs ..if God thinks we are both made for each other, we will still be happily togetheR? :))..

*holds big fuzzy's hand cutely and walks down the road*..=o)...

ahh but maybe as his departure date draw closer, or during the time he is not around, i will be veryvery extremely crying sad? ><...hmmm..really pray for strong faith then..for me to continue trusting God..that He will always give me the best He think is for me..for me to stay strong..during this period of time...

hee..

SEE i knew i have too much time to think la. shall go watch drama!..

:)

and so last week after work i was trying to stuff the contact lense into my eyes in a rush, and accidentally broke it. Realise about a third of it was gone and wondered where it dropped to. Coincidently, my eyes hurts everytime i close it..but i can't find it inside!no matter how big i try to pry my eyes open. went to church..teared alil..and it felt better..

and for a whole week i was wearing specs..so oki no pain. BUT yesterday while preparing to go church at my friend's hse, guess WAD? i slot in a new contact lense, and somehow my eye felt irritated..re-wash that contact several times, and suddenly when i looked into the mirror, i saw to my horror/surprise/happiness, that piece of broken contacts together with my new contact lense+ 1 eyelash.

?!!!!??!!!

so that's the cause of the pain. OUCHHHHHHH.

phew..luckily it is out now.

can't believe it was inside for a week leh!!!><....so where was it that very day i broke it!..on my eyebrow area?

EWWW.

haha so oki..the agency called and told me and marg they found us a job. $7 and $6.50admin jobs at suntec city and orchard. normal working hours.

but they called us one day after we told supervisor we wanted to extend!! (which is after our contract ended on 7july)...

furthermoree..the pay was just slightly above current one.. and we won't be able to work together..and shorter hours=lower pay.

SO, we decided to reject the offers and rationality and continue in cisco..HEE.:)

as said before, the worse part of all for both of us, is rushing to church after work during weekends..it was exhausting though not regrettable. So yest after work,at 9am... (which i was half sleeping through it and trying to conserve energy)...i went to rina's house to sleep for 3hours.. her house was pretty!:) clean and tidy and with a huge bed that when i saw..i fell in love with it. too bad i have to bathe before jumping on it to sleep. :P...so yea fell asleep immediately and woke up around 3pm for church @5.30pm..

service was greAT!:)..below will be the important part of the message i will be sharing (which u can ignore if u dun wan to read:)...

Pastor Mike talked about us constantly being thrown into the "wilderness" and what we can learn from it. First, we have to know deep inside that, all that is happening is God'a idea, and it is to prepare us and let us grow, cos He knows exactly what our weaknesses are. we have to first pass His test, before He can entrust us more important and responsible and great life ahead.. Definitely, the difficult things we are experiencing, are common to others (we are not the only one who suffered the problem, thousands/millions of others do too!)

Second thing we need to know is that God is faithful. He will never let us bear something too much for us to handle. Just like how gold is made (the heat cannot be too high or too low, it must be exactly at a certain level)..He knows how to fan us and make us good, at the end of the day. That's if we believe and accept things that happen to us positively....(this is something that i can verify!:) so far in my own life, there have been ups and downs, the downs seems really really down, and i decided to trust Him..and till now, God has never failed me yet. :D..PATIENCE is needed though. the solutions don't come immediately. it takes days, or even years..of trusting.. HEE.

Third important thing we need to know is that we should not based our self worth, on our performance..or what ppl think of you.. people's opinions of you changes and fluctuates..one moment they like you and think you are great..the next moment they dun think you are and talk bad about you..People's opinions changes very easily, it shouldn't be a standard of what we think we are..what we MUST know is that, in God's eyes..we are not graded by performance,etc. no matter how we perform,in His eyes, we are still His beloved child. (HEHE this is very true too!i must say i am guilty of this in my younger days... though not now anymore..cos my head is growing bigger per second and it's hard to deflate it.:P Of course, not nice things still happens once in a while, to humble me and make me remember where the confidence is coming from. X)

heheh! yeaaa that's a summary of church service!:)...another great lesson learnt, put into words. :)..

so after service went to eat with cell group..and took bus home with john!:)reached home close to 12am..walked around hse went online, before fainting on my bed with 26hours of no sleep. slept 14hours straight though!HEE and i am back to normal again.. =))

wHEEE i love my beD!!..and lying in front of my laptop :)..yest when i reach home, i sOOOO missed my bed and laptop, that i was almost confessing my love for them over and over again. *hugs a pillow lovingly*...

HEE.

k shall go watch some videos now!~

=D

hehhehehee.

okieeee the decision is going to come soon. still waiting for a call for some admin jobs.if there is none...HEHEHE. i will be continuing cisco..till maybe 31aug..if they still need us..=))!!

if not..maybe i will rot at home for rest of the time not working..which is unlikely to happen..cos somehow i cannot stay home without work for more than 2 weeks. or else the alarm will sound..=P

dunno why i don't seem to be feeling sad ..about the long 12 hours..about the far distance in paya lebar..about the night shifts that is making me lose so much weight..(heard i will gain back once i more xi guan)..about the accidents that happen that makes our skin peels..hand cuts..hand binded by machines..vvv quick dinner break..(20mins)..many maggie meals..

well..there are moments i feel that i seem to be suffering unnecessarily..esp when the stupid binding machine's straps binded my hand last week on accident. and when i swallow the food until wanna choke and have to rush back in case the security guards try to fault us for being late.

but after looking at it postively..it's actually quite fun working in cisco la..at least...long hours =more money, the job is not v stressing...jus need to be careful and meticulous and pray.. the ppl are dam* fun..we are slowly getting used to the jobs...so shld be just doing repeating tasks in future..and with public transport..it isn't too far...and..hmm wad about night shift?.. well at least it means after 2 days of morning shift..we can sleep late the nxt day!!cos third day is night shift at 11pm..!!..and after 2 night shifts..it's 2 off days alr! =)..and also marg is working with me!how cool is thaT!:D

LOL.the really more scary issue is the health issue la..like black panda eyes that may make me look less pretty..(although alr very)..and the food that we eat. OH and have to rush after work to church abit tiring..

did that last week..PHEW. luckily the preacher was so humorous last week. or i think i will fall asleep la.=))..

hehe...AWWw..haaPPYY..abit of pay have come in..and it really brightens up my day!!

okie shall go calculate and be happy now..

=)..

OFF today...ahh just woke up at 3pm...with many disturbance throughout the night.. ><..=((( i have dark circles now!! sIGH SOO SAD..must be the night shifts..

hope it will disappear and not stay there permanently..><..

finished watching all pao mo zi xia available episodes..and clicknetwork videos and blogs..why do ppl update so lil!! hee update more !! so i can read..now lying on the bed with laptop..

gg out for dinner with john at night...hmm..maybe i shld sleep again...

although i am only awake for 1hour..

=Pp..maybe slping more will make the dark circles disappear?

BAH.

hmm..LOL and so next week will be my last week working in cisco..or will it? .. how am i feeling now?..

somehow..i can really say this is the most special..though tiring + got many cuts here and there + long hours+ night shifts..+panda eyes job that i have taken so far. It was unbearable at the start, but after about 2 weeks...things started changing for the better.. the ppl there are really SUPER HILARIOUS.. and friendly.. except..maybe one security guard who always find trouble with me. ><..

HAHA. awww..i dunno whether i am feeling happy it's going to end soon. maybe the good thing is that the jobs are no stress job(thank God cos everything seems to be going oki till now..)..so unlike other jobs i have taken up..it is a happy job. :).. just got to get through the first part of the race..

life is like that isn't it? it always start disgusting..(e.g studying)..where u are uncomfortable with the self discipline u need to take..the things u have to sacrifice..and when u keep on studying, and still can't get it..u will really feel like giving up.. but persist on.. and the fruits will be tasty and yummy at the end of the day.. =))....

hee imagine if we had given up on the first few days( SOOOO felt like quitting lA!!and one month seems SOOOO long away)..then maybe we won't meet all the humourous ppl at work..and the salary will be gone too..

=)..if there is one super important value that i learnt since being a christian..it was the never-say-die attitude and persistance that was implanted inside. =)..so strongly even if the whole world is against me (Which sometimes when pms+emo will feel)..life will still move on...with me doing what i think is right. cos sometimes doing the right things which is different from others may seems wrong. oki abit confusing here but yupps.

anyway back to job!! AHH the bosses they all asked us whether we want to extend..HMM...i really dunno leh!! *prays for the answer*

if a job comes , i will go off sadly..if no jobs..maybe i will stay! =D..a few weeks more or something..

made some really funny friends at work..LOL they really made our day by being sOOO cute!!! =PP!!..awwwwww i really abit bu she de to go off and they haf been asking us to stay till aug..for so many times..

hmm, well we will see how it goeS!! i shall go send resumes and interview at this moment..and see whether i can find another job..

HEEE...ahh going to work at night now...quite looking forward to it leh..!! =PPp...i think i am mad..LOL..but out of the 10+ jobs i've worked so far, it's really the first time i am looking forward to a job.. mainly cos of the ppl there!! *SMILES*..

adios! :)

Will things still remain the same? ..Nobody really knows. I wish i can know God's plan for me.

oki whee me and marg is having a one day off break now ..(hee the supervisor so nice let us off cos we look very tired) due to almost crumpling and fainting after work..

it was perfectly fine when the week started..and only turn for the worst after 2 days of working till almost 10.30pm...and reaching home quite late...><..

so yeepps..and from 2 days ago, was asked to do a higher responisbility job..where i have to make sure i do it properly cos at the end of the day..the figures MUST balance..or else will give them lots of trouble. unlike other jobs like..sorting money..sorting cards..make bandles..sweep the floor..(no brain jobs).. this requires more focus and attention!!it is easy to make human error once u lose focus..

so yea lo..everytime do that..must v serious..and pray hard it balance..and yesterday was so funny! cos it was alr latee at night..about 8pm ..so i was feeling reeeally sleepy...alr 11hours of work...><..in addition..no one to talk to me!! so..my eyes was closing slowly...(though still awake)..then my supervisor walked past!! and said "mifung! ur eyes dun close ahh!" in a joking way..LOL! which woke mi up abit.. phew..ptl at the end of the day it balanced and another supervisor said "good job!"...

with that we ask for a break today..and yea! i am happily sleeping at home whole time... =))..

aNd when i woke up this morning, 11am..my mum told me my older brother bought a laptop for me!! =D..jump out of bed and ran outside to find a pretty black sleek toshiba laptop on the ironboard. AHHHHHHHHHHHH..

went to set it up excitedly and now i am using it!!:D..VERYYYYYYYYYYYY HAPPY!!! =))))..it's my first laptop in my life!! YEAHHH!!!...always wanted a chio laptop la!! and this look so chio!!..LOvESSSss...wheeeee thank you kor kor!! (if he ever sees this blogpost)...

HAHA!!! this feel like a dream come true..it's my personal laptop! =))...hehe thinks of ways to design it..maybe buy those blink blink stuffS? hehe!!

=)))....

okiee lots of smiley in this post..! cos so happy!..

but another =X news is from tmr on..every week i have to work 2 days night shift!! night shift=11pm to 8am..!! ><..

faints..*tmr is my first night shift..wonders how it is gg to be!!what will i eaT? maybe tree bark? or.. grass?? LOL..this is really interesting. (my dad work shifts too..and he said the same thing as my supervisor..which is that working night shift..be prepared to be very tired..cos tiring to body..)

LOL this one month..i guess we will learn lots of things (though only 7days have passed by..).. mentally and physically! right marG?? ;)...

was actually hating it ..but supervisor allowed us to work together ....so i guess that's something to be happy too...

cheEERRSS!!* life still great though i have not much life.

=D

haha oki some updates on 4 days of work. LOL one day seemed rEALLYYY long because of long hours..and the after the first day of work..i was sOOOO super exhausted that i just fainted on the bed when i reached home. luckily my parents came to fetch me.. yes i din bathe.><..(i did in the morning though!!)..ahh.. I don't remember ever feeling that tired for a long time alr..maybe the last time i feel like that was NEOS camp in 2008??..

yea..rEALLY tired man..so on day 2 have to get off bed around 7am..then prepared to go to work again..

everyday was a challenge mentally not to quit. but yeA!! i am very determined not to!! for sch fees sake. ><.. just pray my body can take it cos i reach home 11plus at night daily..

LOL so me and marg was rEALLYYY glad that weekends are finally here.. i have never wanted sOO badly a break at work..it's a different kind of looking forward..not just because it is very sian..but because the body is screaming to rest or threaten to stop working properly. >< LOL..it's very essential at this point of time.

after waking up at 12pm for sat and sun..i am feeling better alr..though deep inside, i am still dreading the start of a new week. =X..

it's going to be so long!! ><...5days... hope i won't faint halfway thr the week or something.

haha. anyway yest went to suntec cos john need to buy laptop..then ate kfc(OMG finally i can have lunch longer than 30mins without constrain). and went to church service..

church was great and refreshing! where they talked about something which i feel like sharing in depth cos it's something i feel is very impt in life.(if u are bored by it, just skip the following part.:))

so it started with pastor phil talking about life filled with trials. and patience is developed thr trials..patience = waiting for a long time under immense pressure with positive attitude. there can be many happy events that occur in life, but just one trial..can make you grow stronger from it.

also talked about how God allowed bad things to happen to us,not to weaken us, but to srengthen us..not to defeat us..but to make us victorious.. As we go through the hardships in life, we will slowly learn to deal with life better. Of course that's if you approach those trials with a positive light and not be all negative about it.

then he continued to talk about how it's important to keep our eyes on our vision, just like in a car, there is a rear mirror(small) and a windscreen(big)..we shouldn't keep holding on to the past..what has happened in our life..bad or good..and just keep revisiting and living our lives in those memories. instead, we should look ahead, get on with life..positively and with faith that God will make things right for us. =)..

He then went on to talk about his church,(he is not local) when he started it for the first 3 yrs..it was faced with many difficulties, people signed petitions, wanted him to be stripped down..church wasn't growing, etc. but it was during this 3 yrs, which he learnt so much, how he was not doing things right.. and finally, after 8 yrs of obstacles, he is now reasonably famous in his country, all those that has wanted him off, now wants to shake his hand. even the prime minister...and he received many awards for his contributions..that's how things is going to work in life. God will turn things around for us. Always.=) Patience and perserverance!!!..

and most cool thing he said was what i am going to type. he told us..not to be judgemental..nobody can judge...we can't understand what is happening to us..(the unhappy stuffs..the bad things...why it is happening to us..)and when we judge the situations and try to reason it out with our own logic..with our naked eyes..natural realm..it will not be accurate cos our judgement is wrong.

one example i thought of: if something bad happens to us..example..relationship problems? break up? maybe we will feel that it must be because we dun deserve to be loved, are lousy, or whatever pessimistic thoughts there is. but those aren't true. if we continue thinking that way, our future lives will just be sad.

3 lessons learnt from trials
1.Trials teach us to focus. (forgetting past and looking ahead)
2.Trials teach us that we are never alone.
3.Trials teach us the need for His presence. OR maybe sometimes i feel,trials happen to us so we can draw closer to Him. haha.

so if we see it in this way, bad things happen to everyone, it's just part and parcel of life..so instead of feeling sad and discouraged and becoming resentful and unhappy with life long term, (looking at the wider picture)..it is actually designed to make us stronger! :)..so lets smile and have this never die attitude in us~!! and i think life will turn out great.

well that's what i am believing. =))..at least we have hands and legs right?..if we compare with those better life ppl, of cos it SEEMED like our lives are disastrous. but if you really think about it, comparing to those worse fate ones, our life is actually good. for one, we are singaporeans,(you really won't know how lucky you are holding a singapore passport until you come to work at this factory worker job) for a second, we are educated. universiy students.

LOL. oki i learnt from china friends working at work. OMG they are university grads as well, (i am so shoCK CAN!!)but because their degrees are not recognised in s'pore *faints*..they have to work 15hours a day and paid sOO lil. ><..why? do they deserve it? just because they are not locals..they have to suffer so much with no power to argue for human rights. to think i only work 12hours ..and i am already half dead. how can they take it??...but i guess when you have no choice..the only way to go..is to accept positively. to at least try to make life better. accepting negatively?? just make life even worse lah. why do that. don't make sense.

anyway the point at the end of the day is.. we are lucky bitches. let's be happy about it. LOL.

haha okie this is really a loooong post, and finally, after church, i rushed to peiling's birthday party. It was fun!! :)...and have yummy food and cakes =D.. though only stayed 1hour plus cos it was alr late..

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY XIAO MEI MEI! =)..hahah...

wheee took some pictures!! shall post it when i have them. !

adios for now! :)

HEEHEE. LOL okii i got a job!! *smiles*

saw this advertisment on newspaper few days ago..1 month temp cash management officer..and called to ask them what was the job scope today.. and they said..it was counting money!!..=)!!

EYES brightens up immediately* =D

LOL i love to count money..and all the time since young..i have been counting family funds..sister funds.. and recording the transactions faithfully and guai-ly..though only after taking up accounting that i started recording in a book. Before that recorded in pieces of paper..and somehow things just don work out cos pieces of paper gets lost, information is sometimes not inaccurate due to no proper system.

sOO YEA!! went for the interview and got in! ..

hehe.. this is the first time i went for an interview which requires me to write some report, and also solve some maths problems. It's really funny!! ..and there was a tv there showing mr bean ..which keep distracting me from focusing on answering the qns..

HEHE.. it's actually certis cisco.. a place where 98% of singapore money is sent there. So i was told i will be counting and handling thousands of dollars notes..and will see 10000 notes. (is there such thing??!!or am i being trickeD!).. LOL..however security will be really tight..like all pockets must be sewn up..they will body search u each time u leave the place..security cameras everywhere..etc...

sounds cool right!! i feel like i am in the midst of some action movie involving some treasure..=Pp...

but the down side of it is..it is super far at payA lebaR! ><...and the working hours are 12hours a day. ><...

HMMM..LOL..manual labour...

but nvm, shall treat it as a great experience and learning point!!.. =D..

hehe really thank God for the job! whee:)..cos the pay when added together seems quite good..and it sounds fun!and it is related to accounting!(i guess since involve money oso).. =)..and marg is working with me!! =))...

hope things will go well for us! =)...

whee!! there goes my one month free time..think i will be busy again..btw. LOL why everytime i am super free no one ask me out..and when i am v busy, ppl ask me out!!.. Like last week..i think i just stayed home for 7 days rotting. and walking around the house ..slack sleep online watch tv.. LOL..and everyone was busy!><..

maybe it's cos after 7days of slacking..suddenly feel an urge to find job..(though i told my mum HUMPH i am so going to rest loong loong..)..heh..

yeah have money to pay school fees already!!!! PTL!=D

if only the cough will recover..it will be perfect**.. ><..

coughs**

suddenly thought of something important!! so must come and update in case i forget..

THINGS I WANNA BUY WHEN GET SALARY..CELERY. (must write so i won't waste money unneccesary)

1. a wallet from wallet shop.

2. MAKE UP. (cos have been using my sis's all these while and think she is close to killing me alr if i still dun fork out some money.. =P)

3.hmMMmmmmm..................HMMMMMmm..omy i can't think of anything i need right now to buy..except maybe a laptop? but =(! dun think will spend the money to buy ba..will pay school fees firsT!! :)..

OK gREAT. so i will be a good girl and save all the money i earned. wow such a great plan!! haha..maybe..maybe just spend on some food for outing...some movies..? ><..

yea..dunno la that's all! =)

happy that i am back blogging! +)

hehe!! wheee now in SIM library with shihui..feeling sick because of sorethroat(think I was too high in asia conference and shout too much)..and a potential fever..><..feels so uncomfortable the whole night and keep waking up cos throat hurts so much..=X..

came here cos sh need to pass up some documents.. now waiting for the wiiiii room to be free, so i can play with sh!:)..

happy i came too..! cos feels really good in the library not studying but surfing net. and i mean REALLY reALLY nice feeling!:)..

lols...the months flew pass in this school..somehow i start to feel more attached to this school now..even though it was nothing but disappointment when i first stepped in.

=))...couldn't understand why i have to be here at first..but just believed there was a reason He placed me here, though i can't really see why at that time..and maybe..just maybe..i am seeing the reason a bit clearer now in year 2..

hee...same flock everyone?? :P..

lols..holidays have been great so far..though i haven do wad i planned to do yet!! but it's fun slacking around like a bum having no burdens...haha not for long though..

have to look for a job soon!! :) any intros??

LOL i am so not interested in being a financial consultant..all that called seems to have that post open, and i realised from a ..it's actually insurance agent! =XXx...

i just want a proper accounts/admin job..prays that i find one soon!:)

hEHEHE. okiii!! maybe i shall have a list what i wanna do now~! a reAL from-the-bottom-of-my-heart list.

1. meet out with all the friends i have neglected for the past months. E.g..ShiHui!John!(both johns ;))..sim clique..manping jialin they all..peiling they all(though they say wanna meet me one year later.. =P)..sp they all?jihyun fiona fan they all..cell group spend more time fellowshipping with them..jc friends?? karthi etc??..and chilhood friendS?..heheh yea!

2. slack at home watching dramas..but that's going to be so time consuming!!..(cos watched one drama so far, and maybe falling sick also have something to do with this..cos slept too late..><)...hmm..soo ahhh..dunno!!maybe i should just watch one or two more..then watch tv---esp. variety shows, will be happy too!:)..

3.Learn *****? (those who knows don't say!!will only say when it is achieved.)..

4. help out in housework, with the theme "THROW/DONATE USELESS THINGS AWAY"..cos there'way too much!><..

5.find a good pay, not too faraway from house job.

yeA!! that's it!! 1. will most likely take up lots of time alr!!wanna go sentosa..wear jc uniform..east coast park cycling..oh wait!! and 6.EXERCISE toO!! wanna be both healthy and slim..

so ironic cos i am so sick now..><..lols..

so far only played badminton 2hours, and suffered from all the muscle aches and finally recovered..bu now sick..LOL..heard running up and down staircase, is good for butt building and losing hidden fats.. ;))..

okiee that's aLL for my plan!! :)...

holidaysarejustgreat. =D

LOL exams are finally over!!..

really happy enjoying every single moment of my holiday now..before i find a work that is..><..

ahhhh..but again..had been visiting cousins..playing badminton(2hours and i am dead tired though took many breaks)...and tomorrow going church service and sending off bro at airport..

so busy..
but at least now i dun have to think about studying..=))happy..

it's like 3.30 am in the morning now..and john fell asleep pre-maturely again..lol..

anyway today i asked my friend a question..

"do i give off an image to ppl like i can't think for nuts?"

cos i was really offended/pissed off when ppl think that way about me. well, that only happens when they crossed a certain limit and reach level 11 on the suanning meter. cos usually i am an amiable and nice lil girl. =P

so yea..my friend replied something which..LOL. haha made me smile.

i would say tt u hav 2 different personalities..
or rather, attitude..

in my opinion,
it's very diff when it comes to serious things n casual things..

very, very diff attitude..
which isnt too bad a thing

dun needa worry too much la

jus be yourself
tt's wad we love abt u =))..

hahah yea..maybe it's true la..but ya ma..why be so serious in life in areas there is no need to be??...hmm and maybe it's because....i dun have much to start with..so i find joy and contentment in even the simplest thing....and don't expect much about things/friends/stuffs.

omy..why am i being so deep.

LETS PARTY ALL DAY!! =D

sleeping soon..nites everyone....!!! if there is...*=)

lol!! HAHA! i am finally here to blog after disappearing for ages. wonder if there will still be readers of mine. waves hi to all my fans* =D

anyway i am really sOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo glad that my soci and fm paper is over!! .. =)..whee 2 more papers to go !! ... the reason for my disappearance was due to preparation for exams..and there, the group of people studying with me increased from....1 to 5? woodlands lib is really great, it is so big and conducive, that so many people rather spend their weekends there with books rather than out with loved ones.

i wonder what is happening to us. even sec school kids, (sometimes i see pri school kids.. ><)..are there at my favourite level 2 studying!..feel like just howling at them and scaring them with *eXCUsEE mEEE.. WHy aRE yOU nOT aT hOMe watching poKEmon or spideRMAN?!*...ok joke.

i once saw a girl there who is so organised and disciplined, who wrote her aim for psle was 270, but anyway that's another story. LOL must really learn from them man.

yea! the purpose of blogging now is because my soci paper is over, and i am really happy that alot of the qns i wish that will come out in section A came out!! ..=)..so i think i can pass soci after all!! wHEee flies to heaven and thank God..

hahah!! it was a really great feeling, a huge load off my shoulder cos i din spend alot of effort on that subject, and only got a pathetic 30 for prelims, which demoralised and scare the hel* out of me. =)) i am feeling so light now that i can't seem to feel the stress for next paper. YET. better start refreshing my mind on those subjects soon. soon soon..hehe.

Thank you Father for everything you have done for me. i know that if i were to do it with my own strength, i won't be able to make it. All the glory to you Lord, for watching over me though the darkest moments. =')..

2 more papers to go!jiayou everyone! =)

omg today had managerial econs. the paper was supremely tough, set in a way that clearly potray the message that doing many papers is not enough if you don't understand the concepts. All the questions in section A(50marks) was so new and never seen before (except for some parts) that i start wondering how the poot* am i going to pass the paper. =Xx..and that wasn't a good sign.

conversations which went on while they set the paper,

examiner1: since this is prelims, why not we display our cunningness and set some new questions so those who think they are very good will not be able to do well too..
rest of examiners nods in agreement and starts laughing in an evil way***
examiner1 thus won the chief of cunning behaviour and from then on is look upon by the rest......
...................

oki well if they see this i bet they will think it's not hard actually if you understand the concepts and i am just blabbling nonsense.(BOOOHOOOHOOO.)

story continues,
nevertheless..i know that God answers prayers..and i prayed and continue doing the dam* paper.

and somehow slowly things start flowing into place and well think can pass it though not super well like 60 70. it is always these moments that make me WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA in my heart.

but it is easy to forget the good of Him when bad things happen, so yupps yupps must remember! +)..

ahh 3 more prelims papers left!!

jiayou everyone!!=)

=))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))!!

aHHHH had a very very fun day yest!! =))..hehee the day before went church and heee someone told me he's sorry he couldn't come the nxt day..so wishing me a happy birthday first..

so was abit confused at first, haHAA but later it linked to all the weird happenings around me..and i got a funny feeling that there is something going on!!.. went to ask joHNnNN and shihui and they both say got nothing!!! ...

HMmMMSS!!

hAHHA when i got home..yeaaa suppose to have a family dinner at night at a dunno where place..

so happily dressed up and dad drove us to the dunno where place at simei..then got blindfolded..aND brought to this place, with the blindfold slipping down and i saw jOhNN!! think i squealed very loudly.. =DD!!!

hhaha..then when they removed my blindfold,there was a loud bang!..and everyone shout "happy bday meifung!!!" or something..which i can't really remb, cos was too shocked and stunned..saw my sim and jc friends there with my cell group members which was even more shocking!! AHHHHH. i think i ran out of the room.
LOLL!

hahah apparently john organised it for me and invited all the friends with the help of cg members a month ago!! *sings a sweet song*!!..

=)))!!!

HHEHEE. then then lol my sis bought a tiara for me!! which i love it aloTT!! and so that day i walked around feeling like a princesS!!!sO HAPPYY!! :)..

hehehe...then caught up with my friends and it was a really fun and memorable night for me!! ............ah don't think i will forget this in the near future.. =')!..

then the cake cutting time came, and aWWWWWWW..the caKEE...sOoOOoOOo cute...got two fuzzies on top of it!!=)!! love it to bitss..ahh hope i can see the pictures v soon on facebook!!...=D.....

hahah...now is still in the post celebration mood!! ><..ahh! ..LOL..if only there were no exams coming on 1st march =XXx... i would really be happily slacking and enjoying my birthday mood...!!!><..

loll...thanks for everyone who came yest night!! despite your busy schedules...really appreciate it alot!! =))..and also thankssS a million to deARyy for giving this wonderful bday gift for me..

pictures!! :)


the vVVv cute cake i lOVE!! =DD...lol ate the whole key oOPss..

me chun lok and john!!! =))

sim friendSS!! =))!!

irene me shihui and green ballon jess! :P(cell group friends!!)

hehehe..deARie who gave me a happy party.. lOVESSsyOUu!!! =)))..

hahah for more pics go to facebook! ..yeAA..so happy just thinking about this day =)..miishahappygalfornow..=))...

hehhe..lOVESss everyoneeeeee!!!and yoU!!;)!! <3!!

lolll omYY...I can't believe the last blog post i've written is last month. time flew away again, and this time, i decided to blog cos of the very slack-though-fun bazaar duty i had for the past few days..

as known, i have been going for duty for 2 days..to walk around to see if vendors selling stuffs actually needed help.. and try to help them..

LOL but as the probability of them needing help was quite low.. we had many hours to waste away..and we spent it walking around the stalls, looking for cheap buys. =DD..

and the number of things my friends bought, really feel like we are helping the economy by generating income..!! =Ppp...earrings, dresses, softtoys(my friend bought not MEE!!), yougurts after yougurts, bracelets, face masks...LOL..it was really a heaven for girls. =oP


i managed to control my impulses and just bought 2 dresses and 2 earrings. oki fine, 2 pairs of earrings.

HAHA then we played tai-di, memory game and bridge for the rest of the hours..!! many of the year ones juniors were inside the room studying, *gasps* but somehow the mood wasn't right..it just felt like a veryy relaxed and happy day. and it din't help that it rained too!!X)

finally it was time for phototaking, (my favourite part) and we took many photos!!=))) WHEEE..that kind of marks the end of my council life i guess..

made many new friends in the process of slacking. =o)

and right now is 10pm and i sitll have my FR assignment to rush by tomorrow!~. (2000words)!=X

won't be able to blog so often alr ..wonders how many still read my cute lamb blog..=P

till then, cyaSS everyone and may the mugging syndrome falls on all of us! :)

=))

P.S: OYESSSS my birthday is coming!!!!!!! HeEEEe!!! dear lovely friends, pls don't give me softtoys oki!! i have loads of them at home which i dunno what to do with..esp...jOhN!! ><.....have nightmares abt ppl giving me softtoys every night till then. =PP!

Hahah tataA~!