my love to write... and think about life.

haha! a short lag since i last updated my blog!wonders if anyone still come to check!:)...have been busying with outings, packing and some stuffs..lol soooo fun!X) life's really great without needing to work or study. for now at least. heheee everyday i just wake up..breathing in the nice warm fresh air..walk to the toilet to clean up, and look forward to the brand new day. =D....

heee it has been such a looooooooooong time since i feel so carefree and relaxed..and happiness flood out from my red juicy heart. i think the best thing is to know that this is a break i truly deserve. and had worked very very hard for, since 18years old where i had chiong studies/work non-stop TILL 22 years old.:)

haha of course there are moments now when i feel quite guilty/useless..because all of my friends is starting to work already. i think almost everyone except me and mp. =PP!

HAHA but who cares? nobody worked as hard as me non-stop BOTH in studies and work.(e.g. gave their 120% effort). at least no one that i know personally right now. if you do, pls let me know so i will reconsider my decision of taking a break.

WHEEEEE a break till sept! that's what i finally decided after thinking of all the pros and cons. will start working full-time from sept and till then, i will be taking my happy 2months break with john!=D.... UNLESS there is a good offer from big companies, i will be happily enjoying myself in beaches or mountains out of singapore. =DDD.......
HEHEEEE and of course spend more time with my lovely family who have always stood by me during my darkest moments in life.

anyway! the topic today is about writing! I really love to write! and had a diary since 2004. hehee. oki here are some of the posts inside of my life!:) [warning: some deep content inside. not for the weak hearted. LOL.] *can enlarge if u are interested in the content. promise you it will be super interesting to read what i wrote*

my collection of diaries since 2004! (on top of my blog and private blog) :))

a stack!

21 June 2008

30 March 2009

26 April 2009 (after feeling a lil burnt out from all the heavy mugging.)

one of the millions deep posts.

oki! sooo here is what happened in my sec sch! Secondary 3 and JC 1 was a time where i was SOOOO close to getting retained. because i was a HUGE slacker and playful person that do everything but study. =P..PHEW thank God i manage to make it in the end! HAHA i remembered in sec 4 mid year, i got 33 rank points for my L1R5, 24 in prelims, and 11 in o levels. Then, in JC i had 20 out of 80/90 for my points in mid year. and was one of the last in class!! WOAHHH but the jc one was too scary, told myself i never want to go through tt kind of last minute chionging torture again!><.. (luckily in the end made it to middle of class position for a's)

Having to chiong last minute for geography,chemistry,biology(where the textbook is SUPER thick and you are suppose to memorise everything inside),and maths was the
ultimate NO JOKE feeling in the world. After A levels, the UOL textbook seem really kind of thin...A levels is too crazy la!! esp if u take biology AND geography!and was playing for 1.6 years. ><...

omg.every page was filled with such small fonts.

kill me seriously.

hahah!the depth and content was too deep and hard-core alr!..LOL so glad still can get C in the end for biology. :)...and geog.and chem! HAHA miracle miracle. :)

LOL sec3. i had to write a letter to the principal, as a warning was giving to us(those who fail 4or more subjects). the warning was really serious!said tt if don't buck up, we have to drop to normal acad..and if the sch have no normal acad classes,we will be expelled. =XXXX!!

results at end of sec 3! still quite bad, but at least i passed more subjects this time!..HAHA.. "advanced to sec 4"...i wasn't even promoted.....advanced means in probation..lol..

LOL and why i was "playing" in jc was because i was stuck in this SUPER dramatic love-hate rship with a person in the SAME class. LOL! OMG morale of the story, don't be tgt with someone of the same class!! or else it will distract your soul when you two break up, because there is no way we can avoid or distance from one another. imagine having to see him everyday in class!><.. now to think of it,it is really quite silly. how much i cried and think of him every single minute!.. Here are some..ahem...interesting drama posts!*take note of the date, and how many times i told myself i will forget him.*..

the book that contains 2 yrs of drama.

after seven months of complicated status.

LOL so kwa zhang right! i swear i felt like the female lead in a drama, the way both of us were having such high ego and refuse to admit that we care for each other. LOL the tears i cried in this 2 yrs can fill up 3 red big buckets already...LOL.

more!

drama drama...

yes i am a drama queen...

LOL 2006 to 2007!! that's like....2 yrs plus leh. those were CRAZY EMOTIONAL PHYSICAL MENTALLY challeging period man!kept on getting SOOO distracted from studies by him. i think it was sooo painful/hurting until i already mentally blocked him off so i can't remember some parts of my life where he was there. like those blank memories in your mind. lol i think i will get quite emo and sad one if anything happen to me and bf!..cos i not those easily "fang de xia" girl. HEHEe.. now all these has become just memories....just like many other things in life...i never thought time will heal...but i guess it WILL eventually ba...though it takes a bit of time....

anyway,YEAH WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF FREEDOM MF! =))...................my older bro is finally back from USA today! went to fetch him in airport...john also coming back in a few days time..can't wait!! hehe..deprived of hugs and kisses* =o)...

wOAaabababookie!!........

heheehhehehehe......

I want to go overseas with john but i dun wan to have a baby how!!!><........LOL!of cos i know have protection available...but i dun want to aHEM ahem also..is it possible to have an innocent trip to somewhere romantic tgt?

HAHA! i think no leh!><...okoki tries to think...can hor..hmm CANNOT!!><........how.....
k shall end this post and go and watch my america's nxt top model show!:)..I LOVE variety showS! like project runway, survivor..amazing race..=D...it makes me feel SOO pumped up!:)...and i especially like those winner's attitude..they all have one thing in common: POSITIVE ATTITUDE IN LIFE AND NEVER GIVE UP. admirable! :)

last few pics!