And so I did it, on the first working day of 2019.
It has been a week since I tendered. There have been a mixed of emotions...bittersweet, yet relieved at moments. It is finally over!!! Well, almost. :)
But I would say, this place was a really good one, I have been so blessed working here for the past three years. There is close to zero politics, everyone is friendly, work load is manageable (definitely have stress, which workplace doesn't), AND there is work life balance. Something which is hard to find in the finance/accounting industry. I have always liked working in schools/hospitals. So it was like a dream job. Sigh.. I am going to emo again, but nooo...I shall not do that!
I can't express how disappointed, and pity I feel, that I am unable to go back after my studies. It would have been a good place to retire and have kids. Also, it was a chance for me to do well in this year performance grading, to finally earn my reward from working hard, and I would have got many months of bonus in March. Ouch my piggy bank is sobbing lol!! =((
But oh well, since I made this decision, I am believing God for an even better path for me (more than just monetary terms)!
As I study His word deeper, grow stronger spiritually, I trust that He will provide fully for me, as He has always been faithful and good.
God sees, and I know in my heart that He WILL provide for me. JIAYOU myself in SOT!! Going to conquer all the silly fears of mine, be bold, and obey God in everything He ask me to do. There are going to be so many breakthroughs if I am not afraid and have faith!
HOME
Dan showed me an episode of Marie Kondo in Netflix, on tidying and de-cluttering, and I was hooked! Watched 7 episode in 2 days, and was motivated to declutter too. Glad to throw/donate away 8 medium packets of things in the first week of 2019!!(bags passed down from others, old shoes that I have kept for years, papers, etc)
I would highly recommend to watch her shows, as she has such a cheerful spirit, and makes tidying a "fun" thing to do. Her method of keeping things that "Sparks Joy" in you, and saying thank you to things that you have stopped using/don't want anymore....is such an interesting concept! It teaches you gratitude when throwing the things away.
I shall put the link here, for those who are interested in a trailer of her show! CLICK HERE to read and watch the video at the end about tidying!
Tidying has always been something close to my heart. As we moved hours thrice, our house were often cluttered. For a few times, I have led the family to clean the house, as amiably as I can. Yet, I lacked the proper tools and methods needed to do it an even better way. (KonMari Method) I am inspired to try and make the house cleaner when I go back to visit in the weekends!
Having Kids
A beloved sister in Christ, passed me a book on "Supernatural childbirth" one day, and I am so blessed by it!! Read the whole book in 1.5days because it was so refreshing!! I am glad to say that God has renewed my mind totally about having kids. He took away the many negative and unbelief thoughts that I have about pregnancy, and on having kids.
Teared so much too, because the hope in my heart is stirred. I am now more ready than ever, to receive the little bundle of joy! It would be such a beautiful and joyful journey!!*prays for a miracle* :)
The book talks about a lady who was told by the doctor that she could not conceive. However, her husband have a strong faith and asked her the question. Who said? He quoted Bible verses that promises that there will be joyful children in the house, and no barrenness. And they confess it daily and had faith in the Highest God. In the end, she is a proud mother of 4!!! Wow!! 4?! Miracles can happen when we believe!!
Some promises in the bible!:)
He makes the barren woman abide in the house As a joyful mother of children. Praise the LORD!
Pslam 113:9
Isaac prayed to the LORD on behalf of his wife, because she was barren; and the LORD answered him and Rebekah his wife conceived.
Maybe all these waiting, is for me to learn to depend on Him fully, in this area? Knowing it is beyond me, especially due to the condition, this is the lesson to be learnt? OK I shall believe and trust Him for a healthy cute baby - soon! :)
Mid week, 2 more days to go.16 more work days to serve. Shall try to enjoy and make the most out of it.
Jiayou everyone..2 more days to Friday!!
Jiayou everyone..2 more days to Friday!!
Lots of Love,
Auntie Fung :)
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