being different.

ahhhh....so i finally changed my lamb blogskin after 5+ years of blogging life....hmmm feeling abit sad! cos the lamb-getting-hanged blogskin with the "mary HAD a little lamb" wordings was a love at first sight skin..which is why i never change any skin for so many years, cos each time i wanted, i just can't bear to change!.. but finally, hehee cos i wanted a "FOLLOW" button at the right hand side of the blog, plus a "COMMENT" and "LIKE" button for each and every of my post, i decided to change it.

So, my blog readers, if you like any post, like it okay!!:)..........and any constructive comments, pls do so too! so i can change for the better and be encouraged to keep on writing =).....in terms of layout or more pics etc..LOL don't personal attack me though!;)

hmmm so today i am going to write about the many different types of people i met in my life..the more popular ones, the nice nice ones, the fierce ones, less popular ones, unprivileged ones, etc.

the reason i don't usually like to judge people(most of the time) regardless of what flaws they have, is because i know that EVERYONE has different kind of family backgrounds, problems, and weaknesses. The weaknesses can range from being touchy with girls, likes to brag in front of crowds, moralistic, race, too vocal, very easy angered, etc.

One of my most memorable experience was in junior college, where there were lots of cliques in my class. In jc, i guess i am this "don't think alot and just lalaaa through life image girl" to many people, because i behaved exactly that way.HAHA. =P..

anyway, i remembered my class, having this popular gang..and a few of them inside(i hope they are not reading my blog), always helping the class to "decide" who to ostracize. It was the first time i witness such things happening, not because there was no such situations during my sec school days, but because the extent of it was REALLY bad. this certain someone will first start talking bad about another and gather a few supporters, zoom in on his/her weaknesses, and then try to gather the whole class to hate him/her.

the worst thing is, they often succeeded, with those "sitting on the fence people" joining the herd to ostracise, and not to talk to that person anymore.

........ hmmm i remember throughout my 2 years stay there,my class had a total of 3?4? people being ostracized, one after another, in JUST my class alone..and i felt that it was REALLY VERY STUPID. in many other classes too, there will be at least one such unlucky guy/girl. i find it sOO lame, how once the person changed for the better...the class switch to not talk to another "new target"....you really wouldn't know when it will be your turn.

I was thinking then, why does everyone just follow the herd and not talk to that person anymore? i mean..yes, he has his weaknesses, but i am sure you have too! it is just that yours is not as irritating as his/her, thus is not being picked on. ZZzz. i remember writing in my private blog (YES i do have a private blog that very little ppl know about, which contains some really mature content from the age of 14.but i don't write much there anymore because, i write there only when i feel aLOT or when i am really very very sad about unfairness in life,so it is kind of like a sad blog=()...

anyway, what went through my head then was, how everyone keep thinking i am so "blur" (yes blur is the word for me in jc but has since improved:P).....but yet, they themselves are the ones being blurred by the truth? By picking on the person, and not talking to them, there are lots of negative effect on him/her...his studies may deteriorate, he may feel so hopeless and lousy about himself, or what if, he decided to end his life cos no one seems to accept him and he comes from a broken family too? ...=XXx. (true stories)

anyway, yes, sooo i always feel very strongly towards such people, and feel that they deserve better treatment rather than the whole world hating them. I think people should give them a chance.. alot of times...these "leaders" swaying people to dislike them do NOT actually approach them and give the subject constructive comments. all they do is just talk and laugh about them....and try to make everyone hates him/her.

it is very rare i see such cunning, double sided, "evil?" person, but haha yes i manage to meet a few. ;) they are REALLY "nice" and charasmatic people, someone who is talented in joking and often, successfully makes everyone laugh and admire them. BUT, LOL.....what they do(which i observed)...is really.........disgusting. YUCKS I hate such "cunning leaders" people!!!.....ZZZ. Just because they are better at "being fake" and "hold themselves better" than the weaker ones, they pick and try to ruin someone else's life.

HAHA suddenly i hope the person i am talking about reads my blog. now you know why i could only can write in my private blog, cos i am sure he was reading my blog loooooooooong time ago. ;) LOL yes, i DESPISE such people. that's the word.

but because we are in the same class, i can't express my anger or do anything to him (like maybe trip the person in school or attempt to slap him)...the only thing i could do, was to talk to the ostracised person/people.

YES, so haha! i usually do not care about how everyone sees me, or think it is "not popular" to mix with such people, and just approach and talk to them. Because in jc, i have this very very very good impt friend, whom i hang out everywhere with, ji(a korean friend whom i always eats her kimchi during lunch!:))*yums*)...she told me one day while we were graduating, that i am really someone that is different from how i behaved.(which is idiotic and doesn't know anything-----of cos she made it sound nicer, but haha!i get her meaning.).........and she admires how i always do not care about how i am being viewed from the rest of the world. She also told me, that she also didn't wanted to talk to the ostracised person at first, for reasons she also don't know.. and only because i did, that she did too and realised how THAT person wasn't as bad as he/she seem afterall.) *takes a bow*...

LOL hahah i think i must be making ALOT of people feel guilty now. cos i am sure such situations are not rare. but it's okay, it is still not too late to change and learn to be more acceptable. :)

as much as they are thankful i was there for them, i feel that i really learnt alot from them too..getting to know their unfortunate past, why they are like that, etc etc. It is an eye-opener to know their stories, how they think, and usually i realised that they are really just normal like any of us. or rather, lots of time, they are actually much more sensible than the "normal us", who had never went through as much as them. maybe they just have some traits that is easily picked on, but still.. those are just VERY SMALL things.

Of course, you can continue to choose not to talk to them..haha but what is the point? a friend is always better than enemy...

OYES, i also especially dislike people that is only "fake nice" to people that are potentially successful, but mean and look down on people that don't seem as successful. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWw. YUCKS YUCKS.

okay! so there are two groups of people i really dislike and despise, and i thought i was a nice girl. HAHAA. =Pp...

lol haha so what i have and will be doing for this coming week(today is the 3rd day of my HUGE CLEAN UP/THROW/DONATE things---- THE MESSY HOUSE project)..and i am vv determined to remove all unnecessary stuffs in the house. Lookout for my next post! it will be about the before and after, *with exclusive never-seen-before-pics of my messy-turned-clean hse* =)!!..............

till then, adios and remember to comment if you want! :)