The JoyFoo Life!~

ahhhh....so i finally changed my lamb blogskin after 5+ years of blogging life....hmmm feeling abit sad! cos the lamb-getting-hanged blogskin with the "mary HAD a little lamb" wordings was a love at first sight skin..which is why i never change any skin for so many years, cos each time i wanted, i just can't bear to change!.. but finally, hehee cos i wanted a "FOLLOW" button at the right hand side of the blog, plus a "COMMENT" and "LIKE" button for each and every of my post, i decided to change it.

So, my blog readers, if you like any post, like it okay!!:)..........and any constructive comments, pls do so too! so i can change for the better and be encouraged to keep on writing =).....in terms of layout or more pics etc..LOL don't personal attack me though!;)

hmmm so today i am going to write about the many different types of people i met in my life..the more popular ones, the nice nice ones, the fierce ones, less popular ones, unprivileged ones, etc.

the reason i don't usually like to judge people(most of the time) regardless of what flaws they have, is because i know that EVERYONE has different kind of family backgrounds, problems, and weaknesses. The weaknesses can range from being touchy with girls, likes to brag in front of crowds, moralistic, race, too vocal, very easy angered, etc.

One of my most memorable experience was in junior college, where there were lots of cliques in my class. In jc, i guess i am this "don't think alot and just lalaaa through life image girl" to many people, because i behaved exactly that way.HAHA. =P..

anyway, i remembered my class, having this popular gang..and a few of them inside(i hope they are not reading my blog), always helping the class to "decide" who to ostracize. It was the first time i witness such things happening, not because there was no such situations during my sec school days, but because the extent of it was REALLY bad. this certain someone will first start talking bad about another and gather a few supporters, zoom in on his/her weaknesses, and then try to gather the whole class to hate him/her.

the worst thing is, they often succeeded, with those "sitting on the fence people" joining the herd to ostracise, and not to talk to that person anymore.

........ hmmm i remember throughout my 2 years stay there,my class had a total of 3?4? people being ostracized, one after another, in JUST my class alone..and i felt that it was REALLY VERY STUPID. in many other classes too, there will be at least one such unlucky guy/girl. i find it sOO lame, how once the person changed for the better...the class switch to not talk to another "new target"....you really wouldn't know when it will be your turn.

I was thinking then, why does everyone just follow the herd and not talk to that person anymore? i mean..yes, he has his weaknesses, but i am sure you have too! it is just that yours is not as irritating as his/her, thus is not being picked on. ZZzz. i remember writing in my private blog (YES i do have a private blog that very little ppl know about, which contains some really mature content from the age of 14.but i don't write much there anymore because, i write there only when i feel aLOT or when i am really very very sad about unfairness in life,so it is kind of like a sad blog=()...

anyway, what went through my head then was, how everyone keep thinking i am so "blur" (yes blur is the word for me in jc but has since improved:P).....but yet, they themselves are the ones being blurred by the truth? By picking on the person, and not talking to them, there are lots of negative effect on him/her...his studies may deteriorate, he may feel so hopeless and lousy about himself, or what if, he decided to end his life cos no one seems to accept him and he comes from a broken family too? ...=XXx. (true stories)

anyway, yes, sooo i always feel very strongly towards such people, and feel that they deserve better treatment rather than the whole world hating them. I think people should give them a chance.. alot of times...these "leaders" swaying people to dislike them do NOT actually approach them and give the subject constructive comments. all they do is just talk and laugh about them....and try to make everyone hates him/her.

it is very rare i see such cunning, double sided, "evil?" person, but haha yes i manage to meet a few. ;) they are REALLY "nice" and charasmatic people, someone who is talented in joking and often, successfully makes everyone laugh and admire them. BUT, LOL.....what they do(which i observed)...is really.........disgusting. YUCKS I hate such "cunning leaders" people!!!.....ZZZ. Just because they are better at "being fake" and "hold themselves better" than the weaker ones, they pick and try to ruin someone else's life.

HAHA suddenly i hope the person i am talking about reads my blog. now you know why i could only can write in my private blog, cos i am sure he was reading my blog loooooooooong time ago. ;) LOL yes, i DESPISE such people. that's the word.

but because we are in the same class, i can't express my anger or do anything to him (like maybe trip the person in school or attempt to slap him)...the only thing i could do, was to talk to the ostracised person/people.

YES, so haha! i usually do not care about how everyone sees me, or think it is "not popular" to mix with such people, and just approach and talk to them. Because in jc, i have this very very very good impt friend, whom i hang out everywhere with, ji(a korean friend whom i always eats her kimchi during lunch!:))*yums*)...she told me one day while we were graduating, that i am really someone that is different from how i behaved.(which is idiotic and doesn't know anything-----of cos she made it sound nicer, but haha!i get her meaning.).........and she admires how i always do not care about how i am being viewed from the rest of the world. She also told me, that she also didn't wanted to talk to the ostracised person at first, for reasons she also don't know.. and only because i did, that she did too and realised how THAT person wasn't as bad as he/she seem afterall.) *takes a bow*...

LOL hahah i think i must be making ALOT of people feel guilty now. cos i am sure such situations are not rare. but it's okay, it is still not too late to change and learn to be more acceptable. :)

as much as they are thankful i was there for them, i feel that i really learnt alot from them too..getting to know their unfortunate past, why they are like that, etc etc. It is an eye-opener to know their stories, how they think, and usually i realised that they are really just normal like any of us. or rather, lots of time, they are actually much more sensible than the "normal us", who had never went through as much as them. maybe they just have some traits that is easily picked on, but still.. those are just VERY SMALL things.

Of course, you can continue to choose not to talk to them..haha but what is the point? a friend is always better than enemy...

OYES, i also especially dislike people that is only "fake nice" to people that are potentially successful, but mean and look down on people that don't seem as successful. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWw. YUCKS YUCKS.

okay! so there are two groups of people i really dislike and despise, and i thought i was a nice girl. HAHAA. =Pp...

lol haha so what i have and will be doing for this coming week(today is the 3rd day of my HUGE CLEAN UP/THROW/DONATE things---- THE MESSY HOUSE project)..and i am vv determined to remove all unnecessary stuffs in the house. Lookout for my next post! it will be about the before and after, *with exclusive never-seen-before-pics of my messy-turned-clean hse* =)!!..............

till then, adios and remember to comment if you want! :)

okie today i shall blog about talents!..:).....beware. this is a loooooooooooong post.

for me, i always believe that God is fair!...If someone seem good in one or many areas, there is DEFINTELY something else he/she is struggling with. Maybe we cannot imagine, or visibly see what that person is struggling with. but i know with all my heart, FOR SURE there is something, cos.......NOBODY IS PERFECT! :) (even if they seemed so)...

YESSS. so stop envying others, or being jealous and mean to others...because...you should really appreciate whatever gifts and talents you have been given from above!..

anyway i think(yes i always think alot one.hehe)....when we were born, we are given some natural gifts..however, all of us MUST be given a weakness too, to balance us out. Maybe it is an insecure self caused by certain horrible situations, maybe it is financial difficulties we faced that make us less fortunate than others, maybe you are not good-looking, maybe you are not as smart as others and is constantly being compared...maybe you are not as sociable as others, maybe you do not have a perfect family to start with...and this list goes on and on.................

for me, i have LOTS of this kind of experiences(although i always seemed to be cheerful.) My friends once told me, it is difficult to read me, because...i always look like i am so happy!and look like i have no problems one!..thus thats why i sometimes seem abit childish or naive or no brain...also i never usually share much of my problems with people.


cheerful, happy, never-faced-any-challenges-before, look.

but, Of course i do have problems la! siao ah, who don't have?!..LOL i usually share with my very very close friends, and my darling sister! (whom i irritate alot cos have alot of stories and theories on life to tell her =Pp)..HAHA.

it is true, that usually i am happy...cos i have this theory that really, if you perservere and work hard, all things are possible!! Of course, you need to sacrifice things in the process of achieving some goals you may want to. But i always believe can one leh!!......i STILL do not feel that i am naive thinking this way. It really just depend on how much you REALLY REALLY want something. right? yes. =P

Of course, i am not talking about things like, wanting to achieve olympics gold medal..but working all your life for it..and alot of ppl, still couldn't achieve it until they die. Rather, i am talking about daily things..like...studies..work...trying to chase a girlfriend/boyfriend..trying to lose weight..trying to make time for family..etc...etc...I strongly believe if you can't get sth, maybe it's just because you never try/want it HARD enough.hmm..

Anyway, yes talking about talents..LOL i think it is very easy for whoever is reading this blog, to find one. or two or three talents..

but for me, it is really something i struggled with for very long!..especially with sisters and brothers LIKE THAT, there is always a high expectation to do well in school. Well, i managed to always scrap through into relatively good schools, till i failed to get into a local uni. okay well actually i could go for a nursing course, or be teacher...but hmm!!it isn't what i wanted for my first degree!...

(LOL actually it was also due to some lame accidents..where HAHA i dunno why i didn't discuss with my friends first before choosing the courses, I actually chose double degrees courses, business, accounting courses in local uni, with a set of average grades!!! but okay that's another story.)

yaa,so i felt like i was being judged...and i don't think it is just me thinking too much, but really, everywhere i worked(don't forget is 10+jobs so far), i see ppl who ask me the same set of questions.usually it is an auntie.

her:erm..so, which school are you from?
me: oh, SIM.:)
her: OOo, it's not a local university right?/where is that? i never hear before.
me: yaa...
her: I have a son/daughter/cousin/relative/friends' son...that is from NTU/NUS/SMU.
me: oooo and give a polite smile*...

@#$%%^&?!!....HUH...? Soo?............i also have alot of friends in local unis what!! ZZZ. LOL it seems like these aunties all have a set of model questions to ask when they meet us!! maybe i should just reply something like..."oh...ya...i very stupid one so cannot get in"...or..."haha I SEE. then how about you? which university are YOU in?" and see how they going to continue the conversation..

HAHAHA. okay i feel so mean. but yah you get the point. we are being JUDGED at first impression before we even try to perform. BOOHOOO!!! =(

hahha okay of course i know that aunties/uncles will only know the local unis are good, but after hearing the same thing 100++ times, (okay i am exaggerating)..it kinds of get onto my nerves.

yaa so we need to prove them with our actions, and thank God! it HAD been done. =)

Okay, so yaaa....i think my biggest insecurity in my life is.......my brain.


brain. of cos not my brain! ><.....looks abit like...wanton in noodles..><

As my family used to say i am "stupid" last time when i was younger..(just kidding) it had a great negative impact on me!.. Especially so when i am living with genuis-ss at home, or people who are more talented in many areas than myself!...and i often feel like i really am! because i don't seem to have visible talents like good in computers, good in sports, singing..studies..directions...general knowlege..cooking..etc.

SO, that is one of the bunch of problems i face. Together with the trait of being quite playful and lazy since primary 4(LOL i really don't know what happened..maybe having fun is really addictive..much more than working hard in studies.) It really did not help alot.

So, when i didn't get into local uni, LOL i really felt....><...!!..and i feel that suddenly, the words i say at home don't carry much weight anymore. =((...

Thank God then!! He was my faithful rock solid friend..that i depended with all my heart on, and also john!..that supported me fully in my studies. =))...<3!


God and his promises! :)


John! =DD....

I really don't understand then..why everyone seems to judge you based on paper qualifications, the school you are in.. Why can't they see the awesome heart that you have inside you?...Why does the words you say, whether it carries weight or not, depend on your result?How much you scorE?...I tried applying financial aid from many organisations, but each time they see that i was not in a local school, it was immediate rejection. =(( i think i got so many rejection letters..that LOL. I finally realised something.

We live in a harsh, cruel world.



Reality hit me so strongly, and i fainted.

HAHA joking!!..................LOL. i never faint!=Pp.....but yes, I told myself then, that if I EVER succeeded in my studies, I am going to be someone who is very different from those smartie pants who may disregard words that the normal ppl says,and look down on people.. Also shall not be proud or arrogant.. I wanted to prove that you CAN be filial and do well at the same time..no such things as no time too.don't smoke me, I know how it feels being both a lazy and hardworking person;).. Hehe John now I can argue with u!:p!!..

yupps anyway, that was what i realised then. BUT because i was so lazy, it was really a challenge for me to have self discipline!!......So, yes, all thanks to God/shen/my ancestors/divine strength from above..I did it, in a very extreme way.

I think all my friends from jc/sec school will know, how busy i was that i don't usually have time for them. Of course my priority was very evident. GOD.CHURCH. STUDY & WORK. BOYFRIEND. FRIENDS.

So, usually by the time it reaches boyfriend, there is no time for friends alr. HAHA.oops!!..it is really not that you all are not impt!..but..I really really really really wanted to prove something.

first, to show all that really, nothing is impossible with God!...and also to prove to myself, my parents, my sibilings etc. that it is not that SIM ppl are not smart, (aLOT of ppl i know are so street smart one lo!), it is ONLY because local uni students are more hardworking than us.

BLEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. *sticks out tongue again*...

and of course, it is to prove my point, that yes...you have a weakness. you are weaker than someone in this area, but...DEAL WITH IT!....

If i am "stupid" yet i can possibly get first class honors(this yr or the nxt).......i think only 10 out of 450 acct and finance ppl can get that, thus showing how much sacrifice and self discipline is needed. ALVIN is oso one of them! HAHA. sabo. :)

i think it really shows, that as long as you put in your vvvvvvvvvvvvv best, you really can do it one!!..for me my ingredient to succeed was my faith in God, because i know there is NO WAY i can do it with my own ability. Maybe it's time to look for some motivation from somewherE for yourself? anywhere will do, as long as it keeps you self motivated ba.=)

and i finally found my talent!!after 22 years*SNIFFSSS*............(points to previous post)..and i think that my talent/gifts is really something that is not visible. NOW i know why last time i can't IDENTIfY it!!and made me SOOOO uber sad about it okay!...

they are warm..friendly..nice..sociable..helpful...hardworking..perserverence...vv determined once i have a goal i want to achieve, patience ..being able to see the best out of people(LOL i got a story for this! maybe for my next post)..encouraging..supportive..understanding...caring..quite rational...sensible..thrifty...epathatic...humorous...

Waaa sounds like a perfect wife anot?!! Now I know why got many ppl chasing though I look so 'cui' last time..HEHE.:p!

LOL okay i shall name some weakness too in case you decide not to read my blog anymore cos i too BHB. It is........ too cutE? :) HAHAAA JOOKEEEE!!...okie..no sense of directions/general knowledge(don't ask me things like all the car brands, or who is the president of which country..or our own ministers names..sorry i live in a mountain so i wouldn't know)/cannot cook YET, so my future husband may risk having to eat grass and twigs, ego sometimes too big--thus prideful at LITTLE times. oyes!! and think deeply (maybe sometimes too deep)... and irritate my younger sister too much. =o)...


breakfast, lunch and dinner for my other half in future =))?? *angelic smile*

I really didn't know all the challenges i faced so far in life(looks or brain or harsh situations), is actually to mould me into someone with those traits!...but I am very sure.. If I never had such 'training' I wouldn be who I am today..Ahhh Thankful, though painful!="))

OMY this is such a loooooooooooong post. i wonder who actually reads finish the post. maybe you can tag and let me know. but still, IT is time to TASTE the fruits of my hardwork now!! after 4++ years of hardwork. =DDDDDDDDDD.........

fruits are really swEET! =)


:))

HEHE. and so i got back my results on thurs. that's before rushing to work night shift, which was so TOTALLY anti climax and i really din't know what i was doing at work when i should be celebrating like nobody business.

:)))

HEHE. this whole year was just...greaT :))...even better than the first..

first year in school.. i worked really really very hard! as i was disappointed in going sim and not local uni..however..i depended alot on my own strength..and very soon, found myself quite stressed up..also stopped going church weekly about one two months before exams.. (which may be the reason why i was stressed)..

so when the results came out..well it was oki!not bad..60++, but by the effort i put in, it was really abit disappointing, cos i was like studying every single minute of time when not playing with john. it was then that i realise, i can't do it using my own bare strength. i need more than my own strength, maybe some divine strength from above.

and so this year, my resolution for the year, is to be more spiritual, and surrender all to God!I need Him, i know i can't do supremely well with my own strength...to do more than good or above average, i need Him! aND WOW what a difference it madE!:)...

not only i was less stressed, spent lesser time studying compared to first year(of course i still worked hard la!), rested more by watching tv and sleeping and online..went to church weekly before exams(even when time was running out already and i can't finish studying ...but i believe that by sowing time in His house, i will be blessed!:)...tWO best thing that happened in the year was,

1. i made friends with people that i dunno like everywhere i go.this is really abit freaking but ya la!! somehow they are all super nice and helpful and lent me useful notes that aid me in my exams. JUST WHEN I AM IN NEED OF THE NOTES AND HELP. one even asked if i wanted his handphone number, so when i need help i could ask him and he can help me. OOMG. another one lent me stacks of answers that was like totally rare and unavailable to ppl. some continuously sent me lecturers notes that was uploaded and disappear easily cos the lecturer take down very fast. AHHH and ppl around me was wondering why i always so lucky and meeting such helpful dudes..

2. I managed to squeeze in time to teach my friends before exams. LOL i dunno where the faith came from but i just felt that i am sure God don't wan me to just study my 3 years away a mugger without helping anyone in school..sO HEE. yea... but the point was..i actually had time to do all that!!! at the same time attending church regularly. and making time to teach like 3 ppl 2weeks before exams.

and so, when the results came..and they passed their subjects relatively well judging from amt of time left for them to study, i feLT sOO happy for them!!:)...it was a great feeling..like a sense of fuifillment..i am happy i got that FEELING from nowhere that i shld help them..and i am sure many around studying with me will agreee how come all those things i studied days before, always seem so ZHUN and come out.
:))...bLESSED.

and on top of that..TADAHH..my results.it was really beyond what i can ask for, and i am really thankful to God!!:)...this year had indeed been great, when i relied on Him..all things seemed to work well, and i managed to achieve so much within the same amount of time. :))

HEre is it!

Financial Reporting-74
Financial Management-78 (LOL...okie this is nice...)
Managerial Econs- 93 (OMGOMG WTH??!)
Sociology-63(WAAAHHH i got 30 marks for my prelims leh.. >
=)))))!!!!!THANK GOD for the results man!:)...i know i worked hard..but ...is this even human resultS? ...X)!!!

comparing to year one results..where i was studying every minute i have using my own energy..LOL..this year was GREAT. HEE for those that don't believe God exist...maybe...it's time to...??hee..

once again, Thank God for watching over me and giving me the strength and faith to go through the year. :))..Pray that i will always have Your guidance in my life..forever..all glory to you!!:)...

WHEE~!!!:)

haha so oki..the agency called and told me and marg they found us a job. $7 and $6.50admin jobs at suntec city and orchard. normal working hours.

but they called us one day after we told supervisor we wanted to extend!! (which is after our contract ended on 7july)...

furthermoree..the pay was just slightly above current one.. and we won't be able to work together..and shorter hours=lower pay.

SO, we decided to reject the offers and rationality and continue in cisco..HEE.:)

as said before, the worse part of all for both of us, is rushing to church after work during weekends..it was exhausting though not regrettable. So yest after work,at 9am... (which i was half sleeping through it and trying to conserve energy)...i went to rina's house to sleep for 3hours.. her house was pretty!:) clean and tidy and with a huge bed that when i saw..i fell in love with it. too bad i have to bathe before jumping on it to sleep. :P...so yea fell asleep immediately and woke up around 3pm for church @5.30pm..

service was greAT!:)..below will be the important part of the message i will be sharing (which u can ignore if u dun wan to read:)...

Pastor Mike talked about us constantly being thrown into the "wilderness" and what we can learn from it. First, we have to know deep inside that, all that is happening is God'a idea, and it is to prepare us and let us grow, cos He knows exactly what our weaknesses are. we have to first pass His test, before He can entrust us more important and responsible and great life ahead.. Definitely, the difficult things we are experiencing, are common to others (we are not the only one who suffered the problem, thousands/millions of others do too!)

Second thing we need to know is that God is faithful. He will never let us bear something too much for us to handle. Just like how gold is made (the heat cannot be too high or too low, it must be exactly at a certain level)..He knows how to fan us and make us good, at the end of the day. That's if we believe and accept things that happen to us positively....(this is something that i can verify!:) so far in my own life, there have been ups and downs, the downs seems really really down, and i decided to trust Him..and till now, God has never failed me yet. :D..PATIENCE is needed though. the solutions don't come immediately. it takes days, or even years..of trusting.. HEE.

Third important thing we need to know is that we should not based our self worth, on our performance..or what ppl think of you.. people's opinions of you changes and fluctuates..one moment they like you and think you are great..the next moment they dun think you are and talk bad about you..People's opinions changes very easily, it shouldn't be a standard of what we think we are..what we MUST know is that, in God's eyes..we are not graded by performance,etc. no matter how we perform,in His eyes, we are still His beloved child. (HEHE this is very true too!i must say i am guilty of this in my younger days... though not now anymore..cos my head is growing bigger per second and it's hard to deflate it.:P Of course, not nice things still happens once in a while, to humble me and make me remember where the confidence is coming from. X)

heheh! yeaaa that's a summary of church service!:)...another great lesson learnt, put into words. :)..

so after service went to eat with cell group..and took bus home with john!:)reached home close to 12am..walked around hse went online, before fainting on my bed with 26hours of no sleep. slept 14hours straight though!HEE and i am back to normal again.. =))

wHEEE i love my beD!!..and lying in front of my laptop :)..yest when i reach home, i sOOOO missed my bed and laptop, that i was almost confessing my love for them over and over again. *hugs a pillow lovingly*...

HEE.

k shall go watch some videos now!~

=D

haha oki some updates on 4 days of work. LOL one day seemed rEALLYYY long because of long hours..and the after the first day of work..i was sOOOO super exhausted that i just fainted on the bed when i reached home. luckily my parents came to fetch me.. yes i din bathe.><..(i did in the morning though!!)..ahh.. I don't remember ever feeling that tired for a long time alr..maybe the last time i feel like that was NEOS camp in 2008??..

yea..rEALLY tired man..so on day 2 have to get off bed around 7am..then prepared to go to work again..

everyday was a challenge mentally not to quit. but yeA!! i am very determined not to!! for sch fees sake. ><.. just pray my body can take it cos i reach home 11plus at night daily..

LOL so me and marg was rEALLYYY glad that weekends are finally here.. i have never wanted sOO badly a break at work..it's a different kind of looking forward..not just because it is very sian..but because the body is screaming to rest or threaten to stop working properly. >< LOL..it's very essential at this point of time.

after waking up at 12pm for sat and sun..i am feeling better alr..though deep inside, i am still dreading the start of a new week. =X..

it's going to be so long!! ><...5days... hope i won't faint halfway thr the week or something.

haha. anyway yest went to suntec cos john need to buy laptop..then ate kfc(OMG finally i can have lunch longer than 30mins without constrain). and went to church service..

church was great and refreshing! where they talked about something which i feel like sharing in depth cos it's something i feel is very impt in life.(if u are bored by it, just skip the following part.:))

so it started with pastor phil talking about life filled with trials. and patience is developed thr trials..patience = waiting for a long time under immense pressure with positive attitude. there can be many happy events that occur in life, but just one trial..can make you grow stronger from it.

also talked about how God allowed bad things to happen to us,not to weaken us, but to srengthen us..not to defeat us..but to make us victorious.. As we go through the hardships in life, we will slowly learn to deal with life better. Of course that's if you approach those trials with a positive light and not be all negative about it.

then he continued to talk about how it's important to keep our eyes on our vision, just like in a car, there is a rear mirror(small) and a windscreen(big)..we shouldn't keep holding on to the past..what has happened in our life..bad or good..and just keep revisiting and living our lives in those memories. instead, we should look ahead, get on with life..positively and with faith that God will make things right for us. =)..

He then went on to talk about his church,(he is not local) when he started it for the first 3 yrs..it was faced with many difficulties, people signed petitions, wanted him to be stripped down..church wasn't growing, etc. but it was during this 3 yrs, which he learnt so much, how he was not doing things right.. and finally, after 8 yrs of obstacles, he is now reasonably famous in his country, all those that has wanted him off, now wants to shake his hand. even the prime minister...and he received many awards for his contributions..that's how things is going to work in life. God will turn things around for us. Always.=) Patience and perserverance!!!..

and most cool thing he said was what i am going to type. he told us..not to be judgemental..nobody can judge...we can't understand what is happening to us..(the unhappy stuffs..the bad things...why it is happening to us..)and when we judge the situations and try to reason it out with our own logic..with our naked eyes..natural realm..it will not be accurate cos our judgement is wrong.

one example i thought of: if something bad happens to us..example..relationship problems? break up? maybe we will feel that it must be because we dun deserve to be loved, are lousy, or whatever pessimistic thoughts there is. but those aren't true. if we continue thinking that way, our future lives will just be sad.

3 lessons learnt from trials
1.Trials teach us to focus. (forgetting past and looking ahead)
2.Trials teach us that we are never alone.
3.Trials teach us the need for His presence. OR maybe sometimes i feel,trials happen to us so we can draw closer to Him. haha.

so if we see it in this way, bad things happen to everyone, it's just part and parcel of life..so instead of feeling sad and discouraged and becoming resentful and unhappy with life long term, (looking at the wider picture)..it is actually designed to make us stronger! :)..so lets smile and have this never die attitude in us~!! and i think life will turn out great.

well that's what i am believing. =))..at least we have hands and legs right?..if we compare with those better life ppl, of cos it SEEMED like our lives are disastrous. but if you really think about it, comparing to those worse fate ones, our life is actually good. for one, we are singaporeans,(you really won't know how lucky you are holding a singapore passport until you come to work at this factory worker job) for a second, we are educated. universiy students.

LOL. oki i learnt from china friends working at work. OMG they are university grads as well, (i am so shoCK CAN!!)but because their degrees are not recognised in s'pore *faints*..they have to work 15hours a day and paid sOO lil. ><..why? do they deserve it? just because they are not locals..they have to suffer so much with no power to argue for human rights. to think i only work 12hours ..and i am already half dead. how can they take it??...but i guess when you have no choice..the only way to go..is to accept positively. to at least try to make life better. accepting negatively?? just make life even worse lah. why do that. don't make sense.

anyway the point at the end of the day is.. we are lucky bitches. let's be happy about it. LOL.

haha okie this is really a loooong post, and finally, after church, i rushed to peiling's birthday party. It was fun!! :)...and have yummy food and cakes =D.. though only stayed 1hour plus cos it was alr late..

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY XIAO MEI MEI! =)..hahah...

wheee took some pictures!! shall post it when i have them. !

adios for now! :)